every beat of my heart

2009-06-29T23:28:00.002+08:00

I'VE SWITCHED TO LIVEJOURNAL
so I guess I won't update here for awhile?
I'll post here instead

2009-06-21T23:38:00.004+08:00

nut, banana, choc chip cake and it's the favorite among the 5 or 6 I've baked by myself.
did I mention that I LOVE CREAM CHEESE ICING?

but this I think is the most successful after the banana nut choc chip one, or maybe on par. it was so addictive oh I LOVE CHOCOLATE CAKES too.

oh and this is the watercolor painting I did recently, it's abit warped and screwy I know I suck at human faces. But this one means alot for a variety of reasons which I won't bother elaborating on. credits to a chanel ad :D

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY JODYHONG. bowling would be so different without you and much love!

2009-06-20T18:35:00.006+08:00

I THINK I'M QUITE HAPPY WITH MY HOLIDAYS SO FAR. and hssrp report is submitted all the months of work is almost over now. actually, I think it's more like 2 months of work squeezed together. Ate double dinner today! swensens with zhihui then the normal dinner at home which was lasagna. I seriously need to start on work but I don't feel like it at all. been going out quite alot and doing alot of things. on tuesday I'll meet some people that I haven't seen for 6 years I wonder what that'd be like! but I guess the feeling of rebonding with old old friends is great. there was a day when I was reading through the stuff that peichun friends gave me when I left that place for nanyang. sometimes I wonder whether I'd be any different if I'd stay on. I think I would be VERY different, not that that's a bad thing. I think there was this girl called Jie'r and I always thought her name was quite cool and she was so angelically pretty we did prefect duty together. can you believe it I was a prefect. and our duty was to stand outside at the gate and book people and for the first 2 months I didn't know I had to do duty so I didn't go. then one day I saw her and the rest of the gateduty prefects standing around and I went to ask her if this was what we're supposed to do. then I was so extra but they were friendly and it became a highlight of the day to just stand around with them and talk and be able to stand outside in the wind for the whole morning and do rubbish. on my last day of school in peichun she was so sweet I think she gave me a letter with her address and number and all that to keep in touch plus she did some souvenir thing I think it was made of colorful string and stuff. It's probably hidden somewhere in the cupboard. and yet we've lost touch I don't even know which school she's in now. I think it's kind of sad that people just pass us by like that. but that's okay cos we meet new people and they're awesome too. like you reading this you're awesome:D

I'M GOING TO TRY AND POST THE PHOTOS IN A SEPARATE POST COS IT'S TAKING SO LONG AND MAYBE IT WORKS WHEN THERE'S LESS WORDS? who am I kidding. but someone is nagging for me to post so here goes.

the thing is, no matter how many compliments people give me about art, it doesn't really sink into me because what matters for me, really, is whether i like it or not. whether i get swayed by it, or sucked into it, or just basically can't stop thinking/dreaming/looking at it. and that never really happens. and on a side note, i guess i'm guilty of wanting to feel like i do great artworks with little effort, so even if i like something but i spent alot of time on it, too much time, then i won't be satisfied either. of course, the first criteria matters alot more. and so i'd been thinking, whenever i hold that pencil above the paper and feel this empty void which tells me i can envision what i want to draw, but i can't put it onto the paper, why is that? am i just not confident enough, or shaky, or basically just not there yet? most of the time i settle on the third option. but then, when will i ever satisfy myself. and yet, i really don't think i have very high expectations. so sometimes it scares me to want to do an art-related career. i mean, laugh all you want but what if i am really not going to get there, ever? then everyday spent on my job will be a day of emptiness, and i'll never stop being envious of my colleagues who can do so much better than me. and soon i'd grow to hate it, and that'd suck. but at the end of it all, whenever i look at my old art pieces, there's evidence of progress everywhere. and maybe, just maybe, the progress will continue. and if i stay on this long enough, i will progress till i get there? and it's just a matter of time? but sometimes we can never be too sure. (on an unrelated note, this is the perfect moment to say 'LIFE'S A CLIMB, BUT THE VIEW'S GREAT') and above all, where's there anyway? or maybe the more important answer that i want to know is, when's there?

2009-06-19T12:18:00.002+08:00

10 DAYS TILL HOLIDAYS ARE OVER!!! :O :O :O

good morning. I've decided to take a break from hssrp but I'll go back there soon. The one thing it's changed in me is that I do every single survey I receive now, 'cos I understand the pain of surveys. The bad thing is that now our survey has such a skewed ratio. A GREAT BIG THANKYOU to the people I troubled last night to help me on this though. and also great thanks to you if you did the survey :D I can't wait for 22 June to come so that I can say bye to hssrp for um. a week?:D

Met shawna yesterday at starbucks (again) and I did hssrp report while she did her chinese. And then even though we didn't do much we ended up watching hannah montana:D It's actually quite funny and there was this weirdo aunty nearby laughing so loudly it was embarassing. But then again, I'm just assuming she's an aunty I didn't actually get to see who she was, but it was an aunty-kind-of-laugh. and I ate subway after so long I've missed it quite alot. That's the one bad thing that school ending has caused!

The day before I went to school to make swimathon souvenirs! DISASTER I tell you I'm so irritated that the whole thing was my idea and now it's so hard to do, let alone do nicely. AH WELL. nobody cares about souvenirs anyway right? at least our sportsfest ones will be nicer, hopefully!

I wish I didn't join the tofu art competition crap it's like coloring so silly and now I have to waste time filling up colours on photoshop ah faints. oh and I have ran 5 times over the past 1andahalf weeks but I didn't run for the last 2 days cos I came home too late. I WILL RUN TODAY. sad to say, my level of enjoyment in running hasn't increased at all. I like doing invisible chair.

hmmm back to hssrp then! goodbye loves:D

2009-06-15T22:34:00.001+08:00

And I'll post this here once again. In case you haven't already done it, PLEASE DO thankyouverymuchiwillloveyouforever:D

Dear everyone,

We are Tan Ying Xin and Yap Zhi Wen from Raffles Girls' School (Secondary), and are currently involved in the Humanities and Social Sciences Research Program (HSSRP). This program is designed for pupils interested in Humanities and Social Sciences to further their interest via research. As such, we are working on a project regarding the Consumption Behavior of Music among Youths in Singapore.

We may have approached you to complete a preliminary survey awhile ago. Rest assured that this is a different (intermediate) survey.

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Please rest assured that both answers and personal particulars provided will be used only for research purposes and kept strictly confidential. If you have any queries, you could e-mail us at the following addresses below.

Yours sincerely,
Zhiwen (winterbreak94@hotmail.com)
Ying Xin (yingxin694@hotmail.com)

2009-06-15T00:18:00.002+08:00

Went for a run today. It's my 4th run in a week so I guess I'm on my way to becoming healthy and fit and what not. Maybe it lengthens my lifespan by a day per run? I love how I feel after running, I just hate the feeling while running. But maybe if I do this again and again and persevere one day I'll like the feeling of the entire proccess.

and I drank a cup of iced water which my mom says it's bad cos it destroys your organs or whatever cos you're drenching your internal stuff which are hot after your run with something cold? I think it doesn't make sense, but iced water tastes so much better after a run so I still like it:D

Nick and Zoe's family came today. So I gave them my cake and my mom's apple crumble and stuff and they sat and talked. hahaha I think I'm the most at ease with their family it's incredible. I wonder what it'll be like to have nick as my classmate/schoolmate in RI(JC).
dejavu maybe?

I baked today, and this is my favorite cake of the 4 I've done :D banana, nut and chocolate chip cake. Will upload pictures some other time, along with my watercolor painting! I've started a new sketchbook. It's almost like a picture diary, except that most of the words inside aren't mine. They're lyrics and quotes I identify with or funny things I hear or just random thoughts. But I think I'll look at it many years from now and really know what I was like as a 15 year old. I'll keep this one private. into my drawer it goes:D

Went to explore CLARKE QUAY with rain huimin and maria yesterday. But we ended up going back to plaza sing to watch ghost of girlfriend's past in the end! Clarke Quay is very pretty such a birst of vibrant colors I should go there and paint the scenes one day. It's quite a nice place! and I liked the movie it was so stupidly funny and we didn't eat popcorn! WHICH IS GOOD. because everytime I buy popcorn I leave half the container there and I feel all queasy and bloated with popcorn after the movie and I swear never to buy it again but in the end I still will. NACHOS are much better.

Yingx and I went for the YOG thing! it's probably going to be my last time going to that pale pink building aw man. Was quite pathetic for the thing we did but Bob was very good he's a sure-in I think. Hmm bet they counted that as well and my original video clip was bad too! ah well nevermind I wouldn't really mind not getting in it's not that important anyway right? It'll just be somewhat fun if I do, but otherwise, there's lots of other things to do

like souvenirs and sticking/cutting magazines and running and baking and hssrp
speaking of which, I have so much to do. Is there a dummy's guide to getting started on PTs?

and even forever don't seem like long enough :D

2009-06-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

The young always have the same problem - how to rebel and conform at the same time. They have now solved this by defying their parents and copying one another. -Quentin Crisp

Is this maybe the answer to hssrp! I get lost in my own musings and i get so confused. I feel like eating chocolate cake. I'm gradually starting to like running I feel good after a run. I wonder why rainbows are supposed to be happy when it looks like a frown. I really don't know why I'm ranting. I hate the roughness of my hair and I wish it was longer. I'm glad interviews are over and I can go back to being 'zhiwen'. I like reading quotes. I have a new inspiration.

let's just spin instead of think

2009-06-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away
It never goes away

Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

2009-06-09T21:18:00.002+08:00

OKAY SHAWNA I WILL POST. hahhaha today was a tiring day!
I went shopping with my mom for the first time in eons. Bought 2 tops, a dress and a pair of not-very-high heels. Must say it was pretty alright except once again I feel the pains of being someone with big feet. They never have my size! Okay I still feel this desperate need for more clothes but I'm being a discontented kid.

Studied with Shawna at STARBUCKS on Saturday! ooh so many 'S'es. We were going to go to The Cathay then my mom reminded me that Singapore Idol had auditions on that day. Heh so we went to Wisma instead. But on the bus ride I kept suspecting that some people on the bus were going to audition. This girl really looked like she was singer-type. studying was very productive, it's the first time I'm so productive outside! Especially compared to all the other times I studied with Shawna. Remember when we ended up playing Neopets instead! :D

My lips are seriously cracking I woke up today to find it all white and peeling scared me when I looked into the mirror! Oh I finally did some art yesterday, just one watercolor painting. Frankly it's quite failed, but a good start I guess? Hopefully I'll finally start on more and build up the momentum!

Been doing HSSRP online interviews these few nights. IF YOU WANT TO BE INTERVIEWED PLEASE TELL ME! we need more people:D They are so confusing and stressful I cannot think on the spot for nuts. okay goodbye world happy holidaaaays

OKAY SHAWNA YOUR PAGE WILL CHANGE NOW. THIS IS DEDICATED TO YOU HAHA

2009-05-31T23:45:00.003+08:00

HERE'S WHAT I DID TODAY.
I'm immensely proud of myself, considering I mostly did the cake by myself and it looks acceptable and pleasing. though it looks highly typical:D
So I guess I cooked dinner for today and yesterday. I think I derive great joy from cooking. Maybe I should be a cook. or at least something in the service line.
I really feel that sometimes my life is all about making people happy. so guess the service line fits me perfectly? I wonder if that's why I always end up slogging my guts out in projects. though lately I've been letting others do the slogging for me.

holidays have been going pretty fine! I think I'm really getting quite a good rest for this first week now. though all that's gonna start to end soon. But I guess I've been feeling relaxed and everything. something I'll never really feel when I'm that tired during school terms:D
TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY. also 'cos I ate abit of the capucchino truffle haagendaz from downstairs. I think ice cream has a profound effect on me. inserts happy hormones?

I’ve practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I’ve got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I’m not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin’ this in ribbons
Shouldn’t have to give a reason why

It’s no surprise I won’t be here tomorrow
I can’t believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we’ll find this was no surprise

2009-05-24T21:04:00.003+08:00

I feel absolutely stinky today. Did I just sleep that much?
Walked out to macs for supper last night! They give free (plastic) coke glasses when you buy a meal now. Nevermind the plastic part, I'm going to shred coloured paper and crush them and put them in the bottle. and it can go somewhere on my table.

my table happens to be VERY messy but I don't feel like doing anything to it!
In the same way as how I don't feel like doing ANYTHING:
I want HSSRP to go detect trends and put them into an excel document by itself.
I don't want to do the endless chinese homework.
I don't want to finish the math worksheets that have piled up.
I don't want to research on the orange revolution for history!
but guess what. I have to do all that and I guess I should start?

hmmm I'm thinking I should have a post on 2nd-half-of-2009 resolutions?
alright next post, which will probably be when the term has officially ended.
oh yes and I hope we're getting our classtees on Wednesday! better go nag at Mr Lee:D

I know I haven't replied tags since ever and my entire tagbox is probably unreplied, but I'll just start with 3 tags ago!

shawna: SEE NOW I'M POSTING SO REGULARLY you won't need to nag me anymore. not that this can provide any form of entertainment when you're bored! >< size="1">

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice
You have a choice, you've made it known

Falling slowly, sing your melody
I'll sing along

2009-05-22T20:54:00.003+08:00

I think I'm really going to start blogging regularly now that I'm free-er. EVERYTHING'S OVER NOW but yet I don't feel much of a change anyway. Maybe cos I was more relaxed over exams this time I think this is the right spirit? to care but not too much keep awesome balance. except the bad thing is that, with this kind of spirit I don't really experience much after-exam-happiness anymore.

art SoVA was yesterday it was the longest test I've ever had!! and 9 essays in 2 hours I think my hand was spasming after that. Shawna said I was like some chicken(?) pecking on the table. heh k I'm glad this is over with I don't like art analysis it's one of the worst parts of art :/well, it's over for one entire year now I'm pretty glad. OUR ART EXAMS SHOULD BE EXHIBITIONS. they should give us 6 months to prepare an exhibition at some cool place please. and our assessors should be critics and the public right? okay enough about SAP it's not all that interesting to talk about. sometimes I wonder what I'm still doing there!

open house Richard's stuff is all done! I think we pulled everything off relatively well? considering everything was so last-minute hahaha. after today I feel very guilty for ever criticising or thinking anything horrible k i will never tell others what i thought it's too horrible to be mentioned. but yes I'm so guilty. I guess we would have been able to make it so much better if we had more time, but it's not bad for less than 2 days' effort:D thanks CADs!

I feel like I'm losing myself!
(oh anyway just before you read on and start thinking I'm a directionless sad kid, this is purely amusement though it's real I think it's funny and I'm not sad or anything)
FOR THE WHOLE OF MY LIFE I've been that person who sucked at science couldn't do it hate it found it gross whatever. and then last year i decided to be stupid and normal and take trip science history and up till now some people still ask me why the hell I made that decision. But I was being a coward and being stupid so mmmhm:D
but now all of a sudden, science is getting to me more easily I can understand it better! which is very different okay for the whole of my life science was like some alien language to me. at least now it's um hokkien? partial understanding.
but the more I understand science I hate it more. It's so cold so meaningless so unfeeling so pure stupid. I guess it's good that I'm finally getting a sense of Science, but my old unscience self is gone!! and science is so anti-art ):

one good thing is that I still don't get physics
that's the only science that remains alien and even more alien. and that's the most anti-art science so I guess I haven't lost myself completely!

I KNOW YOU THINK I'M RANTING RUBBISH

I finally feel the motivation to do art now. pumped up pumped up.

OH AND ADAM LOST)): I know I initially liked kris cos he's sort of good-looking. But after awhile Adam was so much more more more and he's very enigmatic handsome charming. He's too awesome to be gay!): ah well but okay nevermind I guess Kris isn't THAT bad? Adam's just better and more different.

goodbye this post took me very long I was so distracted. and I wish I could write as well as some people if I could I would be a writer and illustrate my own books but nevermind the lack of a writing gift!

2009-05-20T23:30:00.006+08:00

We would be strangers who find each other and instantly connect, a group of us who love the same things and don't need to talk to know. We would live together in a small house with cracks on the walls, but we'd cover the cracks with paint and express everything on the furniture. Everyday we'd wake up and there'd be pancakes, or sausages, or a sunny side up. We'd sit around the dining table that is oddly shaped cos we sculpted it that way, and we'd talk and laugh and tell each other about our dreams last night. And then we'd not bother washing the dishes because we simply can't be bothered.

Then we'd leave the house and bask in the sun. We would go to interesting places, and sit and draw for hours on end. Or maybe if it felt like a paint sort of day, we'd bring canvas instead of sketchbooks, paints instead of pencils. We wouldn't speak when we drew, we wouldn't need to. And when we were done, we wouldn't criticise or feel inferior. If it was too late we'd sit wherever we were and enjoy sunsets, or we'd go to a cafe and drink creamy coffee. If we felt like it, we'd pour the coffee over paper and make art with that. We'd dip biscuits into the coffee and we'd laugh and talk once more.

We wouldn't make any decisions beforehand, so there wouldn't be any dinner plans. We'd ask the first stranger we saw to decide for us, and go to wherever that place was. Maybe on rare days, we'd try to cook at home, and have fun laughing at broken egg yolks and smashed plates, but that'd make up for the bad food. After dinner we'd sit on the couch and watch some silly tv and laugh and talk again. On sad days we wouldn't say anything, or we'd buy balloons to decorate the house with no occasion whatsoever, just because balloons make people happy. Or we'd bake potatoes in the shape of a smiley, or do whatever else. But we didn'tneed words, people didn't need words.

When it finally got dark we'd paint our faces and dress up like anything we could think of, maybe a chocolate cake, or a vampire, or a weasel. We'd make new costumes every month, and buy new face paint, and hair dye. Every night would be the best time of the day. We'd leave the house as unrecognizable people, and give our artworks out to people who didn't know art for free. We wouldn't leave our names, or numbers. And when we were done, we'd run around the streets and splash paint on the floor. Soon the town would be painted, and nobody would knew who did it all. We'd find all sorts of ways to show happiness with paint, because we feel like it.

We'd return home and sleep as late as we wanted to, wake as late as we wanted to. Nobody would care, and we wouldn't have to worry about anything.

And when we were finally ready, we'd take our sketchbooks and head out again. Maybe today we could to go a field of green flowers, or maybe a lake with pink sand. And we'd lie in the sand and get all pink so we didn't need facepaint that night. We'd go to anywhere we could find, do anything we wanted, and nobody would care about anything at all.

daydreams are happy things.

2009-05-18T20:41:00.002+08:00

I REALLY, REALLY, DON'T WANT TO PREPARE ANTHING FOR ART SOVA TEST
AND I DON'T WANT TO DO PHYSICS PEETEEEEE.

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watched XMEN with stephcai and yifeng last friday. awesome awesome though I preferred the other movies better. yet to watch angels and demons, who wants to watch that with me? :D

ah bshbshbsh maria just reminded me that I have to do ss fa!

):):):

on the SUNNY side! I cooked myself a sunny-side-up today. I think it tastes far better when you actually cook it yourself. From now on I'll cook dinner if I'm free. DOMESTIC GODDESS heheheh. oh no yingxin is ditching me for 20min during cooking tomorrow, for spsb interview! ah I might just spill and break everything and die. but no I will be a domestic goddess and cope just fine!

OH WHO WANTS TO TAKE ART CLASSES WITH ME DURING THE HOLS
acrylic or watercolor!! especially watercolor I need to master that medium mustmustmust:D

OKAY I WILL BLOG AGAIN SOON.
shall do ss fa with yingxin and JO now. I eat like a pig btw, seriously.
it's disgusting gluttony. Considering how piggish I am, I might just have Swine Flu :O:O:O

2009-05-07T00:54:00.004+08:00

I'MFIFTEEN!

I think this year was the most surprising and awesome birthday ever. Proves that even when there are 3 tests right after your birthday, it might not be that screwed right? I love yall:D
so I was studying at around 2ishpm? and suddenly yingx huimin sherry and jodi MATERIALISED in my room to surprise me so shocking k I was abit dazed. and they bought 12 subway cookies, which is supposed to make a cookie cake. and jodi baked her own banana biscuitty things and made a card. So we stuck candles onto the cookies(which I was really bad at) and blew and did the usual brithday cake stuff. GUESS WHAT WISH I MADE!:D

hmmmm then after that we tried to mug or pretend to. but failed horribly did nothing but keep laughing and laughing. so fun kz I love you 4 thankyou. oh and they all appeared in th 209 shirt! heh and I was left the odd one out cos my shirt was in the wash ah well:D HUIMIN SEND ME THE PHOTOS WE TOOK K?

then on monday!! shiyin and shawna baked a cake for me! this chocolate thing. shiyin your caketin is still under my table ): thankyou you two so much effort heh. and this card thing with gossip girl photos on top? and tingfang gave me stuff from bodyshop. steph gave me many postcards (not very) filled with words. heh but they were very sweet thanks steph my classmate for 4 years. and a pouch.

k then for bowlers!! so after philo I went to meet them at taka, where they tried and failed to surprise me. blur jan said to me: "so have you seen the cake?" when I was supposed to be surprised after. gosh! but ah well they bought some mango chocolate cake thingum eaten it many times but it was nice all the same! and sang birthday song in taka it was pretty embarassing cos people were staring! luckily they decided to sing a little softer. and lynn gave me famous amos cookies and some box of smiley face sweets(WHICH ARE VERY ADDICTIVE LYNN!). oh and a card. thanks bowlers:D

oh and thankyou to all those who wished me some way or the other. Hopefully I don't miss anyone?

denard
stacyyoung
zoe
brendan
michelleng
jodyhong
jodygoh
peiyin
maria
sherry
waye
dionne
sabian
elainehuang
guanyi
nick
jermaine
jieru
yimin
deepa
lynncheng
shiyin
shawna
kevinchan
stephsiow
amy
sofy
RACHAEL!!!!see I do talk about you
yingxintan
jodi
huimin
juleen
tingfang
alvinho
brion
darrentan
richmond
shinhuoy
huayang
rachellim
shiren
jean
liting
vivianlian
zhanyou
bryanchew
linnette
ben
rebeccawong
yirong
vanessatan
kimberlyooi
stacylian
qiaoyoke
zhimin
zhihui

thank you so, so much.

oh and i'll just post this here even though it's weird to do so. Basically, if you haven't already received this on facebook (check your inbox!), PLEASE DO THE SURVEY. i will love you veryvery much if you do it:D

Dear everyone,

We are Tan Ying Xin and Yap Zhi Wen from Raffles Girls' School (Secondary), and are currently involved in the Humanities and Social Sciences Research Program (HSSRP). This program is designed for pupils interested in fields in Humanities and Social Sciences to further their interest via research. As such, we are working on a project regarding the Consumption Behavior of Music among youths in Singapore.

It would be of much help to us if you could spare a few minutes of your time to complete the following simple survey. The 3 links below will lead you to the same questions and survey. There are 3 different links as there is a maximum number of respondents for each survey. Hence, if one link does not work, please try the other two. We apologize for the inconvenience.

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Please rest assured that both answers and personal particulars provided will be used only for research purposes and kept strictly confidential. If you have and queries, you could e-mail us at the following addresses below.

Thank you for your kind attention.

Yours sincerely,
Zhi Wen (winterbreak94@hotmail.com)
Ying Xin (yingxin694@hotmail.com

2009-04-30T20:50:00.004+08:00

350th post!!
I should try to make it a point to post everyday right. even if it's just a few sentences. THOUGHT PROVOKING sentences.
math is finally over! somehow, even though it was so screwed up, I can't bring myself to even feel sad about it. cos the hapiness of it being over overwhelms me! I don't need to hardcore mug math for another. 3 months? that's certainly worth celebrating! :D
art cpractical exam was completely finished today too! submitted everything including prep studies, and though this year my prep studies were quite incomplete but whatever it's over! what's not over are the other exams but somehow, I'm a happier person today than yesterday. I guess it's hard to reach any peak of happiness while poring over indices and surds.

andandand May 3rd! I'm turning 15 soon. 15 sounds like such a cool age to be. Like the peak of our youth and I feel horrible when youths all around the world who are 15 like me(soon to be), are achieving so much! and shawna yes our lives are not enough. but what to do! at least the 15 years aren't completely wasted. I've fulfilled some of my birthday wishes from years ago. OOOOH EPIPHANY. maybe life is just all about fulfilling previous years' birthday wishes. Until there are no more birthdays when you die so you would have fulfilled all your wishes? k I don't make sense.

I wished for me to improve in art during sec one and I guess I have accomplished that. at least I improved a teeny weeny bit from 2 years ago. and life's been smooth-sailing? except for academic shit but who cares about all those anyway right! grapes more important the grapes i'm eating are CUTE TO THE ULTIMATE they are 1/3 red and 2/3 yellowish greeen they look so synthetic k!

i hate to see sad people around me you make me sad huimin don't be sad life is a happy happy thing i command you to cheer up now. and you know i gave you my wall.e painting cos i love you and i give art stuff to people i love!! teehee feel important i sacrificed sticking it in my art sketchbook k:D (though it'd look pretty retarded if I had anyway) okay be happy seriously not everything about life is that bad!
JODY DON'T BE SAD MATH SUCKS BUT YOU DON'T
shawnaananana you should just be a bull and charge head first forwards don't care about anything anymore. I bet bulls are really happy things cos all they do is charge at red things!
yingxin don't be stressed out kz I'll try to be more active for hssrp and your tests aren't screwed and even if they are THEY'RE OVERRRRR smile for me :D

and blahblahbahblahblah

my high mood hasn't subsided. god I must be psychotic or something, experiencing such happiness before chem ss and philo papers! nevermind I'll go do ss notes in my happiness then i'll agree so much about pap being hurhurhurawesome and get an unbalanced essay. off to continue muggersaurus madness then. if i manage to pull myself to

k get me a present(NAH JUST KIDDING) byez!

2009-04-12T17:53:00.002+08:00

RAWR I TYPED THE LONGEST POST SINCE EVER AND THEN MY CONNECTION DIEDED AND EVERYTHING GOT LOST! I shall try to retype what I can remember.

went to watch OM yesterday. congrats shawna jinni rachael jaslyn maria jody going to worlds! :D
and ART IS SO STRESSFUL NOW. i mean on 23 april which is in 11 days, sculpture + prep studies + A2 concept board is due! and I still have other things to do you know. so annoying and I hate sculptures and sculpting so it's made all the more worst. since when did all this become such a pain :/ I had the briefest moment of forgetting all this crap work last Thursday! towards the end of sap thre were a few of us left only, then miru crystal and I just started complaining and complaining. them about their hard to bend wires, and me about my collapsing clay sculpture. and all of us about the crazy work. so we got so tired and stressed out and annoyed that we all became crazy! and laughing uncontrollably and screaming in the art room. And for awhile I forgot how horrible art work has become. and then I left the art room and it all came back and I must have scared yingx with how exhausted and annoyed I looked in the foyer. seriously, this is not fun at all. but I guess with the usual late nights and exhausted days I will finish everything. but it's not going to be good enough and it won't contain anything ah well what else can I do afterall.

on a happier note, piano is getting easier and I'm getting more confident! for the last 9years of which I'd been learning this instrument it's been so hard and painful every single time I touch it. But it's different now I don't dread it as much and I may even be liking it! whoa I never thought this day would come yay. and all the results are over and done with they're all okay except physics! but screw that cos physics has always been my hated subject it shall remain rotting in hell now.

and on an even happier and extremely ecstatic note, I CAN NOW CONFIDENTLY LIGHT A BUNSEN BURNER ON 1 (or at most 2) TRIES! i finally mastered it during bio practical that day. gosh no more worrying about failing entire SPAs because the bunsen burner refuses to light. hyeh yes I know this sounds so stupid and all of you will be like. but bunsen burners are so easy to light! but no bunsen burners have always hated me until now :D

I hate my clay sculpture I think it is shallow and not visually arresting rawr!! nevermind

2009-03-10T20:30:00.003+08:00

today i made an awesome realisation
and i feel light and free i am happy now.
even though i have xfvadgfworsmgmrsohazxs QING.JING.ZUO.WEN to do!! of all things to ruin my streak of happiness! i used to say happyness. but nevermind.
been receiving quite a few compliments lately heeeheeheee i don't want to be almighty proud and showoff but i guess i'm secretly happy oops :x
uncle jack's right. sometimes when i say i can't do this i can't control my hand i can't control my whatever, naturally i can't! but today i think i fought back, and it was better. not awesome not up to my expectations, but definitely better than Freaky Friday. selfbelief omg sometimes i realise I CAN SPARE as long as i believe that i can. like today omgs. k nevermind bdiv has taught me alot. and i will absorb and learn like a sponge, and GET BETTER

i read alot of sad sad sad posts nowadays (mine included) kk be happy everyone. i want to keep this spirit up and maintain it tomorrow. i feel sad that bdiv is ending? SO FAST OKAY. just yesterday kayal jodyhong and i were talking about being nervous during training(it was the day before bdiv day one). aaaaand suddenly now it's going to be over tomorrow. ah well

RGS IS SECOND NOW. i hope we maintain that!! hen we can have a truly happy team dinner tomorrow :D:D:D k i shall type lynn's (horribly failed) joke.

-i was bowling a clean-game-to-be! as in it was frame 7? and it was all spares strikes so far-
-then i drank water-
lynn: EH WHY YOU DRINK WATER, CANNOT PUT OUT THE FIRE!
omgszxs -.-"

sheeeeeeeeeeesh and she had to video us bowling. and zoom in on the weirdest things LIKE OUR FACES! unglam much ><

i realise i like it when people high-five me with 2 hands. sort of a high-ten i suppose. it gives me strength k zomg i think i'm turning weird. i miss my sketchbook it's stuck with mr wong now. i think i'm growing attached to that thing :O:O:O and i actually wrote a note to mr wong at the first page, warning him not to write on my sketchbook and use post-its instead! I HOPE HE HEEDED MY WARNING OR HE SHALL DIE

okay goodbye goodbye
GO RGBOWLING LAST DAY! :D

rachael: I'M OKAY IM OKAY IM OKAY. as you can see from my post teehee. i'm talking to you on msn now this is amusing see you around yup.

2009-03-08T22:32:00.001+08:00

another drawing!
this one's called OH, WONDER
or in jodyterms, finger-sucking girl

2009-03-08T15:07:00.005+08:00

new drawing! this one's called strong kids, tentatively. I think they're just so, so sweet. and yet again, my lousy scanner has made it look very very blurry. you know what, after drawing 2 consecutive ones of children looking at water, i have no idea what to draw anymore and i need new new new inspiration. but nevermind mind i'll find it! moreover i haven't even completed my art sketchbook and it's due tomorrow!! k oh well enough about art. it's getting better :D

BDIV! had bdiv doubles on friday. well guess all i can say is it sucked? but i think it wasn't so much about the score, but i was angry at myself for losing control. how how how could i just let go of myself like that, tsktsktsk. thank you bowlers! yall are very sweet :D either way, i hope i don't do the same thing on tuesday and wednesday. and most importantly!! i hope i haven't lost that awesome feel that i had over the last month. which i lost (momentarily) on friday. please please let me gain it back by tomorrow :D then all will be alright! oh and sorry kayal. i must have totally ruined what could have been a very fun doubles day. but i'll pay it back on quartet alright.

found out something yesterday. it saddens me that this has happened. and i have no idea what i can do about it. but i miss you. alot. too. ah well. let's all hope that everything's going to be alright:D my head seriously has no more space for more horrible things to happen. it's all crashing down on me and i haven't crumbled yet. and I WILL NOT.

GO RGBOWLING BDIV :O:O:O

stacy: haha thank you thank you. i wish i could get the "awesomeness" back for tuesday and wednesday!! k nevermind i will alright:D and beat my high game too

phil: -.-"? who are youuu

jody: i'm telling you it isn't cool AT ALL! why won't YOU listen. heh eh be happy alright big bright smiley:D

maria: howabout. we stood on docks. k i decided that isn't awesome either. D words suck!

KIM: thankyou thankyou! hahah i saw you on friday! k i know you saw me in a bad state too hehehe.

jermaine: yes omg how long have i not seen you for? arghhh i totally miss your cousinly presence! hahahaha thanks thanks. if one day you do go for club training do tell me, then i'll go too :D

dear you,

sorry for making things this way.

i miss you alot kkk. and i want us back!!

even though i don't know how to solve anything :/

love, me.

2009-03-04T20:40:00.004+08:00

My scanner makes the drawing look so ugly and blurry. it's so much sharper in real life but it's alright. I know it's just 3 kids and a lake or something, but somehow this drawing means alot more to me? even though i really can't place what it means. maybe i just have weird thoughts!! still haven't thought of a proper title for it yet. so far maria and jody's suggestions have been beyond lame! DORKS ON A DOCK (wthhh) BLOB BLOBBIER BLOBBIEST(crazy)

Been seeing lots of people in tears these few days. cheer up alright! JAN must stay strong and fight back :D and stacy and krystal and rachel too!! i guess sec 3 suddenly starts telling us that we can't cope with so many things falling upon us anymore. and we should all crumble down and break apart, but nonono i think we still can do this one k! i mean. tests and tests and tests aren't we all immune to the infinite number of them already. and all the clashing deadlines, i guess we'll just have to work through them!

this reminds me of hsm in 209! we're gonna work work work this out. we'll make things right the SUN WILL SHINE

So everyone must all stay strong and stay smiley and we'll get through the tough sec 3 times I suppose. even though this really sucks so bad. I think it's taught me alot about things. i'm so vague sometimes hehe. but yes I've learnt alot over the last month. and it's been alright! I have no idea why I'm reflective, but I'm very happy today.

So, on a lighter note, I passed math! I really, really, thought I would fail. But i guess somehow, I scraped through it? I didn't do that badly, not all that awesome like jody's 35 either, but i suppose I should be content. Afterall, I really didn't know what was going on in math at that time.

Thankyou lynn! and jan! and ruoxi! for studygroups after training even though most of the time it was blind-leading-the-blind. and 4 people staring at the answer sheet with blank faces, the support was great:D

bdiv singles yesterday, I did okay I guess, could have been worst. But could have been so so much better as well. and I found that I seem to have a few lingering regrets after every single time I bowl competitions, so my aim for friday is to get rid of them! like yesterday I regretted so badly that I couldn't just focus when I was sparing those easy spares! why the hell did I need to go thinking about what would happen if i missed it while I was already approaching the lane. eeks. maybe I should learn to meditate or something. keep thoughts out of my brain for awhile!

but training today was so tiring. but I guess it was kind of good. at least it felt like I was in control and eveything. and I spared that 2-4-10 split! well I still can't believe I managed to bash my ankle with my ball in the 5 mins practice throws during bdiv yesterday! like first few shots of the day and I give myself that bruise?! grr. k I think I blogged rather long today, but what am i doing here! I have physics and math and art and chinese and godknowswhat.

kgoodbyee

2009-02-28T16:54:00.004+08:00

I guess I'm contented with masters today! I mean. 2 hours ago I was so sad that I was 4th and didn't get a medal and what not, and even sadder that even though I didn't get any prize I won't be allowed to bowl novice next year anymore because I got top 5 ):
But now I guess I'm happy because the score was alright I suppose, and the positions don't matter all that much hehe. I improved alot! so well, I'm content for now :D and after masters I realised that I have to go back to reality which is that exams are on Monday
AND I HAVE 3 ON THE SAME DAY
and then there's bdiv on tuesday. and there's art exams and alot of other rubbish! I hope I bowl like what I did today from now on! :/ except maybe the first game, that was quite screwed up.

Thanks for wishing me luck and everything!
lynn, huimin, rachael, jodygoh, maria, stacylian, mr yeoh, jermaine, jaslynoh
it was nice to reply all of you and frantically punch my fingers on the phone! thanks much

Oh oh oh oh oh

There will be no rules tonight
If there were we'd break 'em
Nothing's gonna stop us now
Let's get down to it
Nervous hands and anxious smiles
I can feel you breathing
This is right where we belong
Turn up the music

Oh oh oh oh oh

This is the dance for all the lovers
Takin' a chance for one another
Finally it's our time now
These are the times that we'll remember
Breaking the city's heart together
Finally it's our time now
It's our time now

grace: OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU. we were like best friends in primary 3 or something. then you left! hope you're having an awesome life now teehee all the best :D

shawna: yup yup so you cannot quite sap cos we have to continue doing art stuff together alright! please please do not abandon me!

maria: o.0 yeahyeah okay just to make you happy, everyday is awesome cos i'll be seeing you alright? heh thanks for the smses today. you msut have wasted quite a few on me!

banana: HELLO! eh i haven't really said thanks for your very pretty vday card. um be happy k get rid of the emoness you can get through everything! mathpt:x

kim: yupyup! i'm going but i doubt i'll be going for many trainings heh. i'm very tired on fridays. btw congrats for masters today!! you looked really down while bowling! cheer up :D

huayang: thanks for telling her hahaha i didn't even go for training that day in the end!

yingx: HELLO I SEE SHOES TOO. lol phil i think he is very scary i am very scared of him cos he never smiles ): and hssrp = 0 progress! i must do some work soon :D

2009-02-22T13:49:00.003+08:00

one of the drawings that i did when i was bored. or rather. bored of doing any school work. i'm glad i still manage to draw when i want to. even though it's by procrastinating through homework and other things that i need to get done in the end.
I'M GOING TO START A FOOTWEAR SERIES. so my sketchbook shall have a few consecutive pages of shoes shoes shoes :D

today is the day where many things are over. but tomorrow many new things are going to start. over the last week, dealt with math chinese, novices and everything else. math was bad, the worst test i ever took in my life I think. but then I watched He's Just Not That Into You with shawna after that and it was awesome awesome. made my day and got rid of the depressing mathtest before that. And before the movie I finished 1 out of the 4 small sculptures we have to make. so 3 more!! sculptng is getting funner and easier so I'm satisfied.

oh and clumsy me was very accident prone this week. I stapled my finger during chinese exam. and sprained my ankle while going down the stairs! and now it's still sprained. and it makes weird cracking noises everytime I "flex" my ankle? novices yesterday was bad. somehow I manage to pull down my original average from last week by so much over just 4 games. so now my overall average is quite :x

oh well. but I think novices was alright cos I improved from last year!:D and that's all that matters right. maybe it'll get better :D then jodyhong and jodygoh came over to my house for lunch.but the goh left first and hong stayed on we did stuff, mainly looked at my old art stuff and I laughed at my old self.

and next week is going to be busybusy again all the tests coming up. history ss bio and whatnots. sec 3 is very very very hard I wish I could have my sec 2 back sometimes, and not just for the 209 part. but amidst it all, all that matters is that we smile and laugh and joke everyday then each day doesn't seem that hard to get by huh. so i guess now i start living my days one day at a time. instead of by weeks in the past. but each painful school day where i so want to doze off gets easier. and funner.

thanks to those who make schoolhomeworkandlifeingeneral so much less painful:D i am very happy thanks to y'all

2009-02-15T13:12:00.003+08:00

i haven't posted for close to a month! well, nothing much has happened I think.

yesterday jinni huimin and maria came over to do math pt in the morning. math pt is highly annoying the statistics are so confusing so tedious. i just sat on the bed and kept punching figures in and after awhile your head starts to spin anyway. but we were kind of productive (actually, not really.) WE ATE ALOT. i think i eat alot when my friends come over to my house cos they eat too so i eat with them. aweosme i love chips more and arnotts lemon crisps :D okay so maria left her phone at my house in our hurry to go to school after that! maria i'm charging your phone for you.

so they went to school for OM while I went for novices competition! and the bowlers had to sit in the raffles room for almost an hour? listening to some mental talk thing. but it was okay i guess. then we went for lunch at pastamania! hmpf jodyhong and i so wanted to eat british takeaway but we decided to just be nice and follow the batch. i think my batch is very very bonded :D:D:D yup and then we went back to school and took the bus to bukitbatok WHICH IS CRAZY FAR ITS NEAR THE BEACH OMGSH. and were stuck in a jam so we arrived just on time. so annoying had to hurriedly warm up gear up do whatevers while we were still so tensed up from the rush. and my bowling bag kind of got dented. so now the "handle" can't be pushed down ):
ANYONE GOT AN EXTRA BOWLING BAG TO SELL ME? :D:D:D

so then we started bowling and i did okay i guess. other than that massive drop wth. 203 to 142?!? but average was fine and we had fun squeezing into 2 seats(the 4 of us). har i think jodyhong and i have that cool telepathic thing where we both bowl well together and badly together. and we just need to give this look to each other to know what's going on. like what we did that got ruoxi and peiyin so confused and frustrated about what secret message just passed through us! and in the end they never found out:D

after that we went to the FARMART place to eat dinner/supper. its' really cool k. it's like a restaurant in a beach-like setting but hawker centre style? so everything belongs to one shop. but the setting is very heartland and everything:D so lynn, jodyhong, jan, jan's sister, stacy stacy's brother, rachel and i were sitting at one table and it was quite awesome. we ate so much gosh. so basically saturday was eating and eating. we even ate while bowling!! uncle jeffrey's continuous supply of m&ms. and then after eating dinner we ate gelato icecream hehe MILODINO is a cool flavour, even though it's kind of typical.

hmm so then mr yeoh dropped lynn jodyhong and i at some place and i gave jodyhong (and her bowling bag) a lift home! as always tsktsk. yup so i think our cca is actually quite bonded :D like what lynn said. hmm yes saturday was an awesome happy day, even though i spent valentine's day bowling >< it wasn't that bad!

I LOVE Y'ALL happy valentine's day :D

2009-01-25T14:08:00.004+08:00

such a huge change has come over me it's really scary at times. but at others it's just wonderful i'm so appreciative that i made the decisions i did and that i'm like this today. it may not be much but it's alot more than the years ago. i'm starting to be so much more observant sensing all sorts of things around me, feeling weird emotions when i see some seemingly simple ordinary things, wanting to draw so many things that i see around me that i can't concentrate on shopping because there are so many drawable things around!

suddenly everything around me is so art and all i want to do is art but there's no time no time thre's so many other things that i need to do. and to think 2 years ago i was totally regretted taking up sap because it was taking up my time and i was horrendous at it. but now i've improved things are so much better i'm really feeling art more now:D even though sap hasn't helped me it's just the exposure to other people like this and things like this i guess. shiyin shawna thankyou:D I feel like i have so much to say about all of this i want to draw draw draw and i'm starting to ramble. but i guess this is the sort of happiness you feel when you. see the light?

photosphotosphotos so inspiring i need to work really really hard and i want to so i can get better and better and i hope this inspiration lasts. because i used to feel glimpses of it but it always did run away and now it's so much bigger so good. k i'm obviously crazy shall stop the art topic here and draw later. but there are other things to say

rolloffs were yesterday and they pretty much sucked. I read krystal's post about it and i pretty much agree that's how i feel as well. but no i shall not post sad things here to ruin the happiness up there! the best thing about art is that it distracts you from everything else. when i fail in bowling i tell myself that art matters so much more. which it does anyway. i guess i do still want to bowl well. but that doesn't matter as much anymore. i just don't like the feeling of uselessness that overcomes me for that briefest moment. thankgod it's so brief:D

and it's newyear's eve awesome awesome. i feel like everything's a newbeginning now for me. i want to hold on to this feeling forever.
thankyou to those that matter. for everything!

today is such a rambly reflective day. happy newyear's eve everyone

And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won’t go away today
Will you think that you’re all alone
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary

2009-01-17T14:26:00.003+08:00

OBS WAS AWESOMEEEEEE :D
I think on the first 2 days I saw it as so sufferable cos Tock Seng was so dead and weird and unhigh and everything. Then by day 3 it got so much better and omg I miss it so much now. I was in tockseng with Yanping Linn NessaTan Zhiming Yanling ZhangXue Elaine Yunan Rebecca Cheryl Tessa Lanqiao Lidan Yingxin. (heh yingx I koped that from your blog) and we're such a sweet group seriously. especially at the end when we had to thank/apologise to various people then it was all so sugary sweet and abit mushy?
I am too lazy to blog exactly what we did each day so I shall kope yingx's post and edit! (thankyousomuch yingx muahaha)

Day 1: learning how to pitch tents and stuff. we were at Camp 1, so we got proper food and toilets awesome :D

Day 2: kayaking practice (gosh i do not like capsizing swallowed so MUCH seawater) heh I loved capsizing it wasn't that bad!, then we kayaked to Camp 2 where we had belaying practice. and Camp 2 is quite sad :/ first outdoor cooking! I think Tock Seng cooks really well. Our rice was better than my homecooked rice please.

Day 3: Height Elements were not fun ): i am such a loser yeah i really hate heights. I thought the log game height elements thing was quite fun except that ness and I were so loser. we were the tallest pair and yet the shorter pairs all completed it faster than we did. trekked with our heavyyyy backpacks about 3km to Kekek Quarry, where we jumped into the quarry and swam around haha very fun :D

Day 4: Sea Ex! we kayaked from Kekek Quarry, then cut through all the winding rivers inside Pulau Ubin, crossing over a mud bund and concrete roads (must carry the silly heavy kayaks!) and then ending up in the sea and kayaking back to Camp 1. a few of us had to carry the stand at the ledge and carry the kayaks and stuff. me jodi isabelle rebecca and i think alisa joined us. then we kept going "AHH I FOUND A ROCK YAY YAY" (cos you will sink in the mud unless you stand on a rock) so that part was quite amusingly fun:D haha i threw away my water shoes awesome (: ME TOO ME TOO my Kayakis were poor Zhiwen and Yanping who had to endure my annoyingness for 7 hours :/ no you weren't that annoying. I think i was annoying cos I had to keep going to be my silly starboard marker so y'all had to keep turning for my sake.

Day 5: debriefs and performances haha we changed the words of Uptown Girl (i know WanTing loved our performance) to:

OBS
we've been living in our dirty tents
surviving on biscuits and food in cans
writing reflections with our pretty pens
OBS
kayaking under the hot hot sun
trekking under the weight of our backpacks
conquering our fears of heights and ants
(Chorus)
and when we talk, when we sing,
we all love TOCK SENG!
OBS
we've had lots of fun with our buddy group
from morning exercise to games to Sea Ex
Washington plus Tock Seng is Tockshington
OBS
we would like to thank our instructor
Fong Jie has been there for us all the way
guiding and teaching us to cook yummy rice
OBS!
and we sang our silly fongjie's boyfriend song as well. to the tune of i-forgot-what-song. I thought our performance was quite good actually :D:D:D

I think tockseng and washington (our buddygroup) worked super well together! kindof. and can you believe it, OBS has 7 couples getting married in 2009?! whatthehell I think they miss having a familytoo much so they just create families among themselves:D
ohoh and i kept saying hi first and bye last to rain.(cos according to her first hi and last byes are the most important) as compared to the second hi and second byes that i always gave to sherry. but aww sherry no need to be too sad you know i'm just kidding :D
k now it's back to homework and drawing land):
I can't believe mr wong is making us illustrate a coverpage for our sap sketchbook according to 130:livethelegacy -.-"
bye world

2009-01-11T18:48:00.002+08:00

OBS! goodbye world for um. 5 days?
we had house orientation on saturday and the richard classes are all enthu
so yeah it's quite cool and shiyin has the 2 cutest juniors every. sabrina and yun-something.
the first week of school seemed to pass so slowly.
and our class was always so empty with the orientation-involved people gone
but i guess after obs things will speed up
seriously week 1 seemed to take forever to reach saturday :/
no tags no tags no tags D:D:D:

2009-01-06T21:28:00.004+08:00

I am now feeling very very sick
like you know the kind of feeling like you can't breathe cos your nose is all blocked up
and you can't talk much cos your throat is so painful and sore
and yet not talking is one of the most painful things
I just strain my throat anyway
and basically so tired all over if I die please give me a bright coffin and I want to wear a flower in my hair. and lie in nice cushions
okay ignore the rubbish but yes being sick basically sucks :/
I might not even go to school tomorrow

today was just normal and everything
received some weird shocks and I really do not want
so weird and everything but I guess I will just go with the flow?
as long as it doesn't prove too horrible or something
and history ra is just. haiyo why is everyone so smart and well-informed about things and all that
it's kind of queer I mean I'm probably the person in the class who cares the least about history and politics and what not. well! at least it's funny and the teacher is nice :D

and I also wanted to say how I find it the weirdest thing on earth that people need to copy down everything on the board. like curriculum outlines and stuff!
I mean. it's not as if you need to know them right just study them when the topics actually come!
I felt like such an oddball sitting in every single class with everyone bending over notebooks copying stuff. especially in the RAs
you seeI think my current attitude is from my sickness and everything.
you just feel that nothing is worth doing like copying lame things because you have no energy and when you bend down your nose will runnnn and run and run
and it's not comfortable!!

went with rachael to pick up my necklace that I left at the salsa place.
but it wasn't open grahhhh sorry rachael I wasted your time eh
but thanks for coming with me anyway!

despite my discomfort and everything
I feel strangely blessed after reading a certain blogpost from a certain someone
at least I do not have to face all of that and I'm coping well and all that
I don't feel like I'm missing anything anymore :D:D:D
okay if my sickness can just vanish now. I'd be so happy argh
except that we're changing seats tomorrow :/ bye yingxin dionne maria tiffany and nadia
yingxin one day I'll finish that page on your notebook!

sherry: hahahaha you really want them? maybe you can wear them for beyourselfday or something :D oh well I'm sure we'll have some joint events or whatever anyway how exciting!
random: who are you? thanks :D
shawna: hahaha very inspirational meh o.0 oh btw i like your backpack alot. and I do not like sculptures :/
shiyin: nah! I liked your dreaming out loud one. hmmm draw me more then? teehee
chael: heh I thought the orange bird one was from you oops. oh and I included flower petals!
shawna: haiyo all of you crazy people. k y'all can do many more nice cards for me that's great too. until my board is filled with only the most amazing of your cards or something.

2009-01-05T21:38:00.004+08:00

school's started.
and I'm relatively happy with my class
of course nothing can replace 209 and everything
rather amusingly, we all gathered together during the first recess of the year
I guess we really fit together very well
but 314's not bad either
and so I was clearing my last year file
and found all those little cards that y'all used to make
and I stuck them all up on my adhesive board at my table

and here you can see all the random cards from shawna jody yingx and shiyin

hahaha training schedule. and flower petals at the right! and the blue vanguard strip there is steph's pre-eoy lame joke: Little Jimmy told his teacher he never saw a humming bird but he had watched a spelling bee -.-"

this is the whole board. with my silly kid picture in front :x

on the board i have 3 from yingx
2 from rachael 1 from jodygoh
2 from shiyin 4 from shawna
and those flower petal things from sam and jodi :D
and all the other random ticket stubs from the rg concerts last year!
maybe I should start to stick my movie stubs on too.
but then there wouldn't be much space :/
oh I have the silly lame pre-eoy joke from steph
and a mess of all those stickers from house elections
3 richard notes from captains

you see. I think it is a bad sign that I'm resorting to writing about this silly board in front of me now when there's a whole wide world of things more worthwhile to spend my time on
like the colour orange and POWDER BLUE (that I suddenly have taken a liking to)
and the trouble of having to pick up my necklace from the salsa class place that I left it at during the weekend. how clumsy right? haha rachael
who wants to come with me tomorrow!! I realise I hate being alone in public. people kind of stare at you weirdly. even if it's only for awhile. you know what
sap is starting and sculptures is not good at all :x
well tomorrow normal lessons start and everything
steph and yingx are temp chairs!
I realise I'll be seeing tanyingxin so much over the next 2 years
what with house comm and 314 and hssrp together.
hmmm a long post at last :D okay then goodbye everyone

2008-12-31T00:31:00.003+08:00

SKIING! :D

awesome zara heels they are so hard to walk in though :/

the peking duck dadong restaurant

summer palace!

one of those palacey places I suppose. forbidden city?

and more photos on facebook :D

2008-12-30T17:40:00.003+08:00

I'm back from BEIJING THE LAND OF THE COLD
and so I had alot of fun. theme parks and skiing and taking photos
endless suppers negotiating prices buying wearable-things.
eating roasted peking duck thrice in 2 days.
the goat tourguide the snacks.
I'm so sad to be back home to boringness but ah well school's gonna start
I don't even know if that's good. at least I have a nice class to anticipate (:

2008 is ending tomorrow and I don't want to say goodbye!
the year's been so awesome
meeting new amazing people doing alot of nice things
GROWING UP (hyehyeh) taking countless photos mostly with shawna's august camera
achieving some small little things failing in so many big others but it didn't really matter
etc etc etc etc etc etc

I'll miss 2008!!
oh aaron johnson and hayden christensen:D:D:D
I watched angus thongs and perfect snogging on the plane.
explaining the aaron johnson up there :D
HAPPYNEWYEAR
i miss school people somehow.

wanqi: ooops I took so long to reply your tag. nope evidently I'm not. how was milo?

yingx: yupyup I'm so relieved they settled the banner just fine. yay I didn't have to go pull my hair out over some ridiculous portfolio thing. sorry I can't go for your countdown and have fun anyway:D 314!

shiyin: THANKS FOR FINISHING THE BANNER. you are such a great comfort to me HAHAHA. ah well I'll miss you next year 3 12/11(oops i forgot what class you're in) girl :/

huimin: THANKS I can draw one for you if you like. eh did you reply frances? are you going to continue sl next year o.0 I haven't oops does that mean I can't continue anymore? ): oh and 314 too!

yjh: HEY how's UK? just came back from beijing with your sis and mom :D ah well best wishes adn happy new year then

desiree: okay suresure:D

yingx: HI YINGX btw I have grown 10 times fatter since the last time you saw me. beijing is calorie-inducing howhowhow :O

lanabel: all over the world I guess. sigh I regret buying some of them though. they don't look so nice anymore ):

Jermaine: nope. eh are you continuing interclub then? I don't think I'll be allowed to hahaha they haven't called me or anything.

sherry: yupyup beijing was so awesome I wanted to getyou spongebob boxers but I didn't. merry (late) christmas and have a great year ahead too. aw man I'll miss you 315 hur. well at least we have yog. I hope all the hosts announcers and commentators get to be together or we won't really see each other during training.

elaine: okay sure! :D

2008-12-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving tomorrow at 8! To Beijing till 30th.
how exciting I have been using the computer much less often now. Which is why I haven't posted in almost a month!
I think the holidays are flying past too soon
I thought it was still rather slow in november but December just flew away
and in this month many happy things happened!
getting to be the yog host thing so I expect it will be great fun
314'09 which seems like one of the funner classes and it's so much better than I expected
finishing Richard banner except for varnishing!
and many other things worth smiling about! December is such a happy month plus going away tomorrow
so goodbye world. Merry Christmas :D

2008-11-26T20:36:00.003+08:00

there are days when I want my tendon to hurt again so I have an excuse not to do well but i guess that's not the point! Oh well well well
banner painting going very slowly ahhhh shiyin come back from wherever you are now!
Gave hadley the address for the paints place that was so hard to find heehee I did a good deed -beams from ear to ear-
omg primary schoolness. Otherwise all's well and green cakes really shouldn't be eaten cos your stomach feels so queasy after that

2008-11-23T21:05:00.003+08:00

I've been going to sl more frequently now. The kids are so like childhood couples I find it unbearably sweeet, except they are actually siblings. But if you don't know they are siblings you'd think they were together!omg so cute it's like those pictures that we always see of kid romances. hehe xinxuan and shikang or something like that. Playing games with them is much funner than origami. They have this graduation ceremony of sorts? how cute. I regret not doing more things as a kid. like uh swimming with fishes or whatever. I did fall down alot though, in fact I still do so now.

I have this blister on the back of my heel from wearing that pair of flats! so I can't bend my leg that much now so that my heel doesn't stretch and hurt. There's nothing much to blog about man man man. I stopped drawing so much no idea why either. I don't think I feel like drawing so much any more? maybe in a few weeks it'll come back! Either way, banner painting awaits. I bought chalk today and we changed the design :D I like the new one hmm I do hope we win! Since it's most likely my last year in house comm now

I found 'the five people you meet in heaven' somewhere around my house. It's such a surreal mood in the book it's so weird. And you get the dreamy floating sensation as you read it it's so queer. Been in the mood to relive old friendships from the long long time ago. I still can remember some kindergarten friends it's kind of sad that we lost contact eh. but then again, that's what always happens. I'm writing so weirdly now it must be the book's fault.

grawr I need my holidays to be MOREEE

2008-11-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

The sweetest song ever 1234!
hmm I've been drawing alot recently.
but it's all been stupid unoriginal sketchy stuff like that ^
baked shortbread and cornflake cookies today
and they were not too much of a failure, surprisingly

banner painting is going to start oh man
shall buy paints tomorrow alone. tsktsk everyone
and rollers, oh the inconvenience
I don't feel like replying tags cos there aren't even many to begin with
but if I don't then they will pile up ah
I am talking rubbish here I shall just reply tags right!
say "yes very smart girl"

sherry: stuff is awesome! how's you? haven't seen you in a long while or so it seems. well sl is coming :D how about breakfast again

stacy: eh and you haven't shown me. a thousand splendid suns is even sadder. but it's so lovely it's my favorite book of late

yingx: I'm starting to get used to the new skin too :D well, sing to the dawn very nice meh. it reminds me of book day 2007 hilarious i think i was dancing. or trying to

shawna: haha yeah it hasn't died down i still have all the songs in one playlist and i listen it to sleep. omg i don't ever see you. have i said that before? k soon soon:D

shiyin: but it was so meaningless omg. maybe you will i suppose! i bet twilight will be better seriously. ah well banner painting jiayou cads ftw

wanqi: hahaha i bet you cried okay. are you going for bowling chalet?

samantha: it's like the best book ever. very very sad. about afghanistan and the lives of two women. very brutal lives sort of

chael: heh yeah it's hard for me to reply tags with the tiny tagboard too! but well it has to fit into the size hyehyeh. orange font teehee

stacy: yeah i bet she did did did! i didn't though, bvut it was still awfully sad

huimin: haha watch with someone who wants to watch again as i told you! are you going for sl this saturday! go go go i haven't seen you in a long long while. hmmm come for breakfast with sherry too

shiyin: hahaha i didn't ask you to tag!!!!!!! but now i posted so you can actually:D yay awesome

2008-11-12T22:48:00.002+08:00

I changed my skin! (finallyfinally)
it looks so weird now though.
met sherry after training today and we watched quantum of solace.
it's the most awful show I've watched in centuries, seriously. sherry agrees!
okay that might just be because I was drifting in and out of sleep throughout the whole thing
but seriously, it's just bangbangshootshootfirefire. and then some silence. then more bangbangshootshootfirefire.
highschoolmusical3 was so much better and simpler (k hsm has simple lame plots anyway)
did I mention I watched it twice! sherry and I were toying with the idea of watching it again.
and seriously, I wouldn't really have minded.
probably would have known every single line before they said them though
and that'd be abit boring. but I'm sure that'd be better than quantum
ATHOUSANDSPLENDIDSUNS is going very slowly. well, it is a slow-paced book.
okay happy holidays everyone
I hope the 209 outing materialises, I miss the class already D:

2008-11-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

SUNDAY gave me quite alot to consider.
alot of confusion as well and I don't even know where to start!
but it's not as if I can do anything about it
even if I ever do get the courage to do so
it'd just create more conflict and disasters
sigh cicumstances circumstances.
but it's nice even being able to consider this
for the first time in my life :D
thanks yingx

(talking about disasters. I keep hearing this song on the radio "She's a natural disaster.... (blahblahblah)" it's verycatchy k I hall go find out what it is. but my computer can't download oh man!>.<)

TUESDAY (today) gave me new clothes and shoes
got a top a few dresses and shoe-like pumps
k it's the most I've shopped in. months!
and I got 2 books yestrday too.
a thousand splendid suns + artemis fowl and the time paradox
heh k maybe artemis fowl is abit boyish but it's still quite interesting k
and a thousand splendid suns will probably be like kite runner just sadder
hmm one of the less chicklit and more intelligent books I've bought :D

chael: ehh k you know what that was about already I told you online! uhm I'll change my skin soon. I'm rather bored of it too. help me choose one?

sherry: venus is going useless + ugly. and it's displayed in my cupboard now. not muhc of a decorative display either since it's so ugly. it's definitely nicer than what it WAS though. nyehnyeh I hope you remember the prune-like skin

shiyin: k you said the same thing as chael! I WILL CHANGE wo bu hui lan duo :D and HELLO SHIYIN!!!

banana: hello hello yesyes class outing might still materialise though. hehehe 209 owns please. nevermind we might be in the same class next year :D and maybe sec 3 will be even better, though I highly doubt it

stacy: HIIIII argh training is getting boring don't you think so. oh I never asked you but can you do splits like rachael can? must show me :D

yingx: hello yes tag more tag more. you have stopped being a frequent tagger hmf. sorry for burdening you with the whole confusion thing oops

2008-11-06T23:16:00.003+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY HAPPY
thankyou rachael :D
i never thought that could happen heh this is awesome
and i swear jodyhong knows me better than anyone else
k maybe but yes i hope i will be decided after lunch tomorrow
things are definitely looking up i don't feel so stone anymore
butbutbut
WHERE ARE THE TAGS :/

2008-11-06T19:00:00.002+08:00

today is a very stony day
so many decisions to make and so little time to decide
or rather, even if you give me all the time in the world
I won't ever be able to decide
why oh why must they allow us to change subject combi again!
just after I told myself to stay with my first decision and just stick with it
and I'd decided the last time because I was too lazy to go through the hassle of changing
but now, what? I know I should really just go and take double BUTBUTBUT
oh man subject combi, you're killingggg me!

and worst part of this is that no one else is even being indecisive about this.
so i'm the only one left here thinking of all the possibilities and whatever
chem physics history geog or triplescience history
seriously just give me a suggestion anyone
I'd willingly follow your advice and just get this over with.
on a lighter note, history ra :D

I need someone who can just tell me what to do now
but of course I know this is a decision I have to make myself aw man
9 November is drawing near. what am I to do?!
OKAY I SHOULD STOP COMPLAINING

2 days into holidays and I am already missing everyone! hell how am I going to get through 2 months. at times like this, I totally identify with you Sherry
was supposed to meet shawna today but she couldn't so I stoned
I need my holidays to be more meaningful and fun and awesome than this
agh this is the first time I'm not going overseas at all in December for years
volunteer! or learn something! or go somewhere!
I NEED TO GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE
wanna come with me, anyone? :D

2008-11-04T22:14:00.003+08:00

school's out! scream and shout!
okay so class party then om results, which were as expected ><
then jody's house rockband! i think i ate the most food hahaa
along with shawna who was very busy drowning her sorrows in spicy pasta and whatever random nice food jody had.

progress report was. surprising
and as shawna said. how am i going to survive not being in the same class as her!
and so many other people yingx jody rachael sherry huimin jodi shiyin dionne and so on
i've gotten so used to seeing them everyday!
well maybe i'll still see yingx and huimin everyday next year cos of trip hist
but the rest! oh man i'm going to miss everyone like hell
it hasn't really sunken it yet though hahaha
guess we still have the holidays to see each other :D

congrats jody! heheh heracles with rachael so fun k
and shawna problem one isn't that bad just face it then maybe you'll enjoy it
otherwise, there's always red tea to look to. plus i'm not saying goodbye forever and ever cos there's sap(as much as it's only once a week)
YOU HAVE TO GO TO WORLDS, actually you will i bet you will

2008-11-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

THIS IS THE AWESOMEST THING EVER :D

2008-11-03T22:32:00.002+08:00

heh dramanight today awesome k I never thought I would ever be in dramanight for anything but a filler (111)! but we finally won champs on our last drama night. I think it's an awesome ending to our year as a class, really. I am lazy so I shall kope yingx's post.

[WAS AWESOME. haha with me as Portia! no la actually it was Steph who stole the show. and Sarah our wonderful director. Sherry - my Bassanio! Jody - Nerissa! Pris - Gratiano! Shiyin - Antonio! Peixuan - Jessica! Jodi - Lorenzo! Duke - GraceK! Zhiwen Rachael LT - gold silver lead caskets! Zhiwen Huiting - flying birds x) Yvonne Dionne narrators! and choral people! and extra helpful people! ah basically. I LOVE 209 <3
i think rabbits are awesome]

yesh I LOVE 209 omg throughout the day jodygoh and I had periods of moaning about how 209 will disappear tomorrow. it's the last day together I bet many of us will cry cry cry. heh I bet I'll be one of them. ah well, and to think when lynn told me how her class cried in sec 1 I was so amused and shocked that a class could cry about seperation. but now I know why :D and I'm glad I have a chance to be with this class that's worth crying over heh

omg this post is getting so overly sugar-coated and cliched.
ah well! and looking at the whole column of us on the msn contact list with the names: <3 209 (insert role here) I FEEL SO TOUCHED ZOMG
heh I swear I'm going to have a very fun time tomorrow since it's the last time (to get it right)
ah we're so into hsm! throughout the whole day we were singing JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU and NOW OR NEVER and I WANT IT ALL. and stuff like that.

bet tomorrow we'll just end up singing them again! even though we'll know all the results tomorrow. like ra and om? and stuff. doesn't matter anymore we're all just going to care about the last chance we have in our classroom together. heck the silly results. okay i am overwhelmed with happiness (heh not really overwhelmed with exhaustion actually)

COINCIDENTALLY, i am wearing my class shirt now teehee it will always be a reminder of our class! yay steph jsut signed in with her <3 209 SHYLOCK name. the <3 209 list is getting longer and longer.
goodbye everyone happy 2nd last day of school

The way we play tonight
is what we leave behind! (That’s right)
It all comes down to right now
it’s up to us! (Let’s go!)

So what we’re gonna be? (Gonna be)
T-E-A-M Team!
Gotta Work it out
Turning on (Come on)
This is the last time
to get it right!

This is the last chance
to make it or not!
We gotta show
what we’re all about (TEAM)
Work together!

2008-11-01T20:36:00.004+08:00

HSM 3 for rachael's birthday on uh. saturday i think!

this is shawna's oneshotpersecondcontinuous function

and this is the place where mango ice prevails

it has dawned on me that other than drama night and last day of school, which are not really school days anyway, school is going to be over! which may be good, but isn't an entirely happy thing either. 209 is going to vanish vanish vanish

but hmm 2008 has been very fun. but i didn't do anything or achieve anything significant either.maybe the biggest thing that i did was to start liking art and improving in it. and that's not even anything very significant! i finished that huge canvas, which doesn't seem all that huge now actually. um and successfully printed the class tee by netcarn. which isn't really anything significant either. but seriously, life's not about achievements anyway. i found that out this year :D

heh while waiting outside the ra interview place everyone was getting nerved up and everything. seriously what's the point! i'd think other things like. um art and friends and family and fun and life were more important (awww how sweet) hmm funny how i've been learning piano for 8 years and it never crossed my mind to even include that in the important-things-list ><

209 got in for drama night! but our tech rehearsal was quite horrible I hope the real one will be better. and then the school year ends and i guess a new beginning would have been awesome if i didn't want to stay in sec 2 so much. hmmm sec 3 seems so stressful but i guess when we're in it somehow we'll survive it?

ohoh after farewell assembly they played we're all in this together! heh hsm shawna and i watched hsm 3 twice k. once with yingx and rachael as well and once just the 2 of us (: and i must say i don't regret it at all. hsm 3 is the best among all of the hsms (hsm 2 was horrible!) everyone grew better looking as well

and theory exam was over and done with today. i hope i passed. well, i think i did. see what low expectations i have for piano. k bye now urghhhh richard banner here i come

2008-10-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

om auditions were :x

but scrap that the happiest thing today are the shirts are herei am highly proud of myself huiting and everyone of us. even though there was that whole names issue and whatever issues, we are still getting our shirts for netcarn hooray!!

and 209 got best live performance for acp! we totally deserved it please, even though i wan't there when the announcement of prizes were made cos i was at auditions heh. but omg we're so coolzxs okay. and drama night auditions were awesome as well. somehow i thought it was better than any of our gazimillion rehearsals. and i hope we get in, though song did hint oh so heavily. we better we better! then we can be caskets and carrots and bunnies and wolves :D

so in general today was an awesomely happy day. with the exception of om auditions but nevermind. we'll see! and sherry and I ate pastamania today. it's my first visit to the fareast pastamania since it didn't open very long ago anyway. i ate some creamy thing and it was too creamy. i swear i'll eat tomato sauced pasta next time k

and net carn tomorrow omg i'm a GS who can't shoot?! ah well goodluck i bet our cheer will be so cool k :D I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLIER TOMORROW ):):): to deliver ms ong's and mr ho's shirts to them, and ms ong's block letters for drama night. mafun much! k bye i shall sleeep very early tonight.

2008-10-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

I trained for the first time today in about one and a half months. It was better than I expected cos I really had low expectations for today. But alot of things were still quite screwed. so stiff

updates for the week. ACP! the whole hsm thing was a rather big success despite all the mistakes and whatever cos SARAH can be a standup comedian. and all the rest of the cast were great and even though I bet we didn't win anything, it was quite cool.

But either way, there was this really weird sec one who came to our class >< really really weird don't even know her name but won't describe her anyway. but omgoshh. hmm we went for the singapore art biennale exhibition thing today. Quite cool really, cos the artists make very good use of the locations and it makes it very special. saw a caethrin-like thing! though caethrin's stuff are all spikey but the janelee's stuff were like "worms"?

k uh haven't gotten rachael anything and shawna already has! ah okay i need to go shop for her present. i am happy about the class tee. i hope the mr lee person tries his best to get it done by 29th! or 209 will just slaughter me but yes. that's not the point the point is I am not a very good tshirt incharge i dragged this from like. centuries ago till now!

but richard shirt will be very nice thanks to shiyin's design! am content and even wenyan says it's nice so IT'S VERY VERY REVOLUTIONARY K :D:D:D

2009 is coming! but 209 is disappearing quite sad k I believe it will be the nicest class that will ever happen to me. unless 2009 proves me wrong. but really it's awesome k i'll miss everyone so much! nevermind what am i doing mourning here i shall go paint!

yesterday i painted just cos i felt like it. which is great it's one of the first few times i have time to paint/draw when i feel like it. hmm except for a few of those recent pencil drawings. SADLY! the painting turned out so screwed up even my brother said it wasn't nice. but nevermind brighter prospects.

and did i mention? yingxin gives really nice (but calorified) chocolate bars x)

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home
Pressure - Paramore

chael: my quote ended up being ZHWEN. and it's not a typo. k i haven't bought your present deeply sorry i will make ammends. oh i just realised we are fellow caskets HOW COOL IS THAT. let's dye our hair gold and silver respectively.

wanqi: bet you did okay please! either way your batch is so lucky cos you have us to help with tons of things. i think it's the first time seniors give all their pts to their juniors!! tsktsktsk

sherry: my fingerprints are cooler than yours k! i give correct answers so I AM HAPPY YES YES YES YES YES YES. there you go are you happy with my answer (thecorrectanswerisyes) and the correct response is to tag again :D

kim: hahaha i will join if i'm even invited in again? doubt uncle ronnie will let me please!

yingx: my shampoo is hot pink! the bottle I mean. and the brand side is always facing way from me in the bathroom even though the pressing pump thing is facing me (means i never get to see the brand and i don't remember my shampoo brand) either way it's hot pink so it's cooler than milky white (boring) dove. but i eat dove chocolate and my favorite colour is KALEIDOSCOPE. hehe everything k drama night theme o.0

sam: well me and yingx have to edit hssrp as well! so mafun k i feel like just not doing annoying much. rs is just an annoying bitch seriously. cmps was like queen bitch already i hope hssrp doesn't become empress dowager or something. goodluck anyway :D

2008-10-16T20:52:00.004+08:00

today was just weird
everyone was in weird moods. not everyone but many people. and it was a boring day
we had free blocks galore. which kind of became banner designing + eating icecream with jody!
and then medical checkup. yay i managed to not get banned from OBS even though i didn't have my letter. heh i just erased what i wrote so scoliosis wasn't listed as a back problem :D

GENIUS RIGHT! :O

okay and then yingx and i went to starbucks to work on HSSRP. I'm glad to say we are rather productive we better get it k! but starbucks was so amusing, seriously. here's the story

we were just sitting there doing our very serious humanities work when this guy came over. probably low 20s? okay that's not the point. and he started saying something along the lines of "my friend and i were thinking of some really deep issues. so we wanted to ask you whether you floss your teeth before or after you brush your teeth...." (?!?!?!) okay so we both said before. and then we said the sequence doesn't matter. and then he went back.

but seriously DEEP ISSUE?! okaaay. and then we turned back and we saw the 2 friends having a seemingly very deep arument. like they looked like they were talking quite seriously.

Barely half an hour later, the other friend came over and said something along the lines of "blahblahblah do y'all believe in magic spells? cos one of our friends, we're like a 3-person clique.(HAHAHA BOYS USE THE WORD CLIQUE?!) and he was at his house with this girl. NOTHING HAPPENED I PROMISE. and then after she left, he found this feather underneath his sofa which was glazed with honey. and it had scroll attached with unreadable ancient alien language. so we brought it to a magic shop and the guy said it's an attraction spell. now my friend doesn't dare to step out of the house because he's afraid he'll see the girl and won't be able to control himself cos of the spell! do you think it's just psychology or is it real?"

well, something like that. so i told him it was a hint that the girl was giving his friend. that she liked him or something. and then he went on to ask something like "are you 2 best friends? you look at each other when you ask questions and you look like you're close!" then,

me: "NO we're enemies"
yingx: - waves hand at me and makes some weird sound that sounded like "chhhhhi"-

so he said: "do you use the same shampoo? or like the same color?"
yingx + me: "nooooo?!"

okay so he left after that. and we just burst into laughter. maybe they were just bored people. but they really looked like they were deep in conversation. hmm amusing

2008-10-15T01:14:00.001+08:00

i.need.new.songs.
why does cmps come back to haunt me again. okay get presentation over and done with. slides!slides!

2008-10-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

I KOPE ONE SENTENCE FROM RACHAEL'S POST
"ahahahaah rockband at jodys house zhiwens singing is the best la haha and we were so noisy playing the drums haha and jody you have so much food in nice bowls!!"

actually i figured it's 1 out of 2+ sentences in your post cos you don't use full-stops at all
and yes i know my singing is brilliant beyond brilliance! (alliteration hehh)
HAHAHA "i'm such a weirdooooooooooooooo, i hope you notice meeeeeeeeee" and the "29 fingers and all are thumbs" (?!) and the "say say saaaaaaaaayyyy"

rockband is amusing, though i am SO VERY GOOD at drums and guitar and especially, singing. very very very very good i tell you! you must see / hear it to believe it k!
EOYS ARE OVER OVER OVER but i'm not feeling the full impact i usually get from exams being over, cos they were kind of over yesterday cos science wasn't muggable at all

I thought science today was very tikam and anyhow and i probably didn't do well for it!
aiya nevermind, i don't care that much about science cos i don't like it
if i do badly, then it's even more a motivating factor for me to
change my subject combi to GEOG HIST CHEM PHYS
y'know what, maybe i should set up a poll like yingx.
hahaha not really x)

i'm thinking of what quote i want to have for class shirt
cos we all get individualised quotes o.0
huiting and i, more like huiting, finished the tee design today. she took my drawing and photoshopped it HURRAY! i'm gonna give to ms ong on monday and all's well will end well.
we have dragged this from february till now. woahh

209, go y!gs and check the design now and decide if you want white background or black background. NOWWW

my quote shall be 'do not kick me'

have i mentioned how satisfying it is to watch gossip girl
after i've (successfully with lots of effort) resisted it throughout eoy season
and ANTM! and shows like that
though my resisting efforts slipped oncewhen i watched 2 episodes of antm the day before history. can't help it it was abit too dry

i am very sad that lauren-brie got kicked out
i mean, over sheena?!?! lauren-brie was the prettiest of the lot please, much more than sheena
and her stuff were all the best seriously.
and to think i wanted her to win hur
nevermind. analeigh and mckey are still there
all is not lost.

i'm starting to think chuck is rather hot
even though nate will always beat him cos he has the perfect face
i think season 2 makes chuck look quite good
better than season 1 at least
season 2 makes dan look much better too
surprisingly so

guess what, maybe my quote should be
sandwich artist

hehehehehe the subway one, my hidden (not really) ambition k
hmmmm. you you you you help me think of a quote!

2008-10-07T20:09:00.002+08:00

I am going to finish this cup of coffee
and then finish history like some bullet train and sleep by say, TEN PM
I'm so drained out already I'll probably not suffer from theusual can't-fall-asleep-for-no-reason part today
in fact I haven't had that for this whole week. very bad sign

hmm more than half of eoys are over and they've been not good generally!
The best was probably uh PHILO?! ahhh sucks big time
but the end is near and I'm honestly looking forward to that.
hmm at least I know this time I've really tried my best, i suppose
under all the constraints of having to rush art eoys and all.

4 papers left. and only 2 muggable ones x)

2008-10-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

all the 5 fingers on my right hand have whorls as fingerprints
except the pinky which is a loop
and all the 5 fingers on my left hand have loops
except the thumb which is a whorl
w-h-o-r-l is a cute word. it's like an octopus. kindof

But mercy is above this sceptred sway,
It is enthroned in the hearts of kings.
Lit exams are very very annoying :/
I'm glad tomorrow's test is the last one i'll ever take :D

2008-10-05T15:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHAEL PIGOWNER LO PIK YI :D

2008-10-03T19:23:00.006+08:00

rachael says:
EH YOU HAVENT POSTED FOR A LONG TIME
rachael says:
:D

on chael's request I shall, also partly because geog is boring me out
today is a good day (again)! because the two papers english and chinese compos were all relatively good. or at least okayish I suppose, I hope the results are the same. After school shawna yingx chael and I went off to macs to eat/study. more like eat actually. I barely did anything. OKAY NO I DID NOTHING. 2 paragraphs of geog and lots of fries+applepie+filletofish+bbqsauce

recent events has led me to think that my gpa for sec 3 and 4 will die without geog. so i'm considering going to mr chang and asking if i can change from my original choice of tripsci hist to chemphysicsgeoghistory. whatd' you guys think?

I haven't heard of anyone doing that combi yet though. I'll settle all this after eoy results are out, then maybe i'll go ask ms ong to help me ask mr chang :D awesome

guess what, my new favorite ben and jerry's ice cream flavour is S'mores (or something like that)

chael: guess what! sitting beside you isn't that fun okay. finefine it isn't that bad. my cellmembrane joke is rather lame i agree but you didn't have to 'NOT FUNNY ZHIWEN' me heeheehee :D SMORES IS NICER THAN CHUNKY MONKEY! oh and pink cheese cos the blog skin has 'say cheeeeese' and it's pink. and i was thinking of cows jumping over the moon so >.<

yingx: hahaha you've got to try chunkymonkey. nono you've got to try smores. after eoys we should go on a bennjerry icecream rampage! heck the calories x)

lynn: heehee you're more of a kid than I am HAPPY TODDLERS DAY! more suitable for you really

I've been waiting here so long
But now the moment seems to come,
I see the black clouds coming up again.

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world,
To the end of time,
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm,
Into the blue,
And when I lose myself I think of you,
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon.
Just me and you

2008-09-26T23:57:00.003+08:00

4 hours of miss ong which was filled with
ridiculous mer(cy)ant of venice
sitting beside chael and huimin
chael tattooing my hand
purple pink blue green raindrops
me thinking her GIRLFITTI markers colours are very nice
my messy handwriting

I came home and I slept for a good 4 hours
it feels satisfying! and I ate chunkymonkey alotalot of it, which made me very happy too
and i haven't painted at all but doesn't matter I'll finish in the end!
math is stupid I don't get anything so I just gave up

ohoh rachael tattooed my hand with monsoon tokio hotels i think. and I have the song now it's actually quite nice. along with the other tokiohotel songs. I am such a pirated person :/

Today's classes were kind of weird 'cos half the class wasn't there and we all sat in front. I came very late almost 8am I think and Ms Ong asked me where I came from. and I said THE RAIN
which was very true the rain was pouring and thundering I LIKE. we should all go drench ourselves in the rain and run around like idiots and be hyper

and one more good thing about the rain is that our buckets collected another 92 litres of water. sounds alot hurhurhur. I shall go eat more chunkymonkey

I'm in a smiley:D mood again because of chunky monkey
and all the new songs I have and 'cos I ate chocolate pillows today.
I will eat it more often now it is a very smileyable food :D

tag replies:

chael: YES THEY ARE VERY GOOD COS THEY MAKE ME EAT MORE CHUNKYMONKEY. uh see you on monday blue raindrop. I still haven't thought of what to give you for your birthday tell me!

wanqi: haha I put you in my scrapbook be honoured okay. You looked so reluctant though humph. and sorry for losing the nose (I'm sure your own nose is nicer than that disgusting flat vanguard sheet one though)

shiyin: haha took 14 years but yes. eoys make me unable to satisfy it though but nevermind. once they are over I shall draw all that I want again, if the obsession still lasts till then

yjh: hello i need food

yingx: um it always dies anyway. and I'm updating now aren't I. I am a very irratic? erratic? blogger seriously unlike some people who post multi-coloured posts. and I HAVE noticed that my color-coded name is goneeee

steph: no you're not to feel that way cos I am in a smiley mood now. i think it's cos i'm eating chunky monkey and monkeys smile?!

2008-09-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

omg blog dyingdying

I hate it that art takes up so much of my time but yet i like it alot and i am not gonna say that i want it to fill up my life. canvas i paint very slowly i'm not even half done it looks like trash! lit quiz i haven't done anything and probably am not going to cos canvas isn't done and i'm too tired to go on on my crazy sleep less spree i need to close my eyes and DREAM!

but i can't dream or at least can't remember my dreams but. haiyo tomorrow should be fun i hope. the after school art room avril lavigne classic songs part! haha classic songs has become avril hilary duff things like these that we listened t back when we were small cute girls. and it's awesome awesome fun despite trashy canvas it's nice i like the art room singsong feel. speaking of which wong booked us for cleanliness! ):):): there isn't even such an offence and that's not the worst he wants us to stay back and clean the art room!? gahgahgah

i love some songs they keep playing in my head they serve as great inspiration k! the year is ending again how fast how fast like some F1 racing car x infinity. i can still remember my first day in p4 seems like yesterday omg shows how fast years go by! eoys drain me out i swear i am going to survive this and then my freedom will come! and i hope in the process of it i will enjoy it (totally impossible).

i drew jan an archuleta. be happy! i want to keep drawing people faces for other people like your idols your inspirations your whatevers. but nono i have no time i was gonna do a JOejonas for JOdygoh k. but nevermind focusfocus i need to eat yummy cereal. which is downstairs! i shall go downstairs then. and then finish canvas

haiyo some people aren't feeling very happy nowadays must smile must smile. i zombie out alot now due to lack of sleep i'm gonna overcome that and i will win the war sleepmonster! it is at times like this when smiling's more important cos eoys + angry faces = even sadder lives. ugh friday's coming and JH will be bringing us out for supper hopefully. good food to look forward to

bye world canvas awaits :D :D :D :D :D 5 smileys to motivate the world

2008-09-14T18:52:00.003+08:00

and pictures from some time ago!

yingx's birthday! we're at ben and jerry's

teacher's day. the hongkong cafe place at cineleisure

2008-09-14T18:34:00.003+08:00

This is a productive weekend because for once, I've done something more than just work work work dying :D

It has taken 14 long years but it's not late! I've finally realised I actually do like art, alot alot. And I want to improve on it the most, more than bowling/studies/anything else. And I want to spend my entire life at least doing something related to it. I guess it is a very very nice feeling to finally find something that I actually like, omg how long has it taken? And all these years I've been thinking I am just doing all this for the sake of it. Guess things take on a different meaning now and I'll put more effort into this from now on.

I did this sketch of some random model in some make-up advertisement. This is the start of great things :D:D:D

Another good thing is that CmPS is ending, and I think we will be fine in the end. Though sec 1s refuse to bring more buckets hmph. But I hope our scrapbook turns out pretty and the teachers will recognise our extra effort and give us okay marks. Thank much sherryhuiminsamanthasherylchengjingkai'enstef, we have doubled our productivity rate, kind of! which is awesome yay

And also, 209's class tee will be done soon. Hopefully before eoys, then 209 will be happy happy and we'll all happily do awesome for eoys. (ThoughI rather the shirt be pink or orange or limegreen or some other color instead of black! ah well)

goodbye world I am very smiley today :D

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside down
Thinking how you left me for dead
California bound
And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost of what we used to be

TAG REPLIES

tingfang: haha i've been great! you too i suppose. I think probably evan the dancer? can't remember who else. are you going to remain in cheer? you can't block people on FB just delete him as a friend? hahaha tell him in his face man! despo xD yes i seriously hope richard shirt turns out cool! or i'd have to suffer the school's "omg the richard shrit is so hideous" for 2 whole years x)

jean: HAHA! hilarious lah exchange. yess miss you loads too<3! see you soon

yingx: you tagged so much again! well done hahahaha there's the new ipoid now my touch is not valuable anymore >.< and stop saying youi're fat before i transform you into a sillymonkey. btw i voted YES for om because I think you can handle it. What's the worst that can happen anyway, maybe just more eyebags (:

shiyin: seriously does yours mean sad/angry/havoc or what. lots of people are veyr amazed by your art online journal btw :)

grace: it's gracekoh right! the peichun one right :D yeaaah. i think at least 2 years or more. yup i'm having a nice life you too i hope?

shawna: hahahaa jurong :X maybe you should go to MY old house at yiochukang one day. there's a very nice plyground. nono i mean 3 very nice playgrounds :D

jan: oh man stop your addiction. I am glad to say I am not as addicted to the song as you are :D make the addiction GO AWAY-AY-AY-AY-AY!

chael: HI PIGOWNER you and jody start giving me the weird looks first. ah well at least it keeps both of us awake in weird-hair-that's-neither-permed-nor-straightened's lesson heehee

2008-09-07T14:53:00.003+08:00

happy birthday po/pt-pal

our hair looks kind of the same o.o

soon mine wil be as long as yours, just you see yay

i was the last one to wish you 23.59 hur:D

2008-08-31T00:05:00.002+08:00

IT'S SEPTEMBER
AND ALONG WITH THAT COMES EOYS DRAWING NEAR
AND ART DEADLINES I SWEAR I WILL DIE :O

i've finally decided to sit down and reply all my tags, afterall there aren't alot since hardly anyone tagged when i stopped blogging regularly

this time, from the most recent first

janne: HELLO ooh that's cool! but lots of people are taking trip hist anyway. i hope sec 3's class will be as fun as 209 was this year though :D i'll relink you k

yingx: haha the highlights were cool okay! i started the trend chael and shawna copied me. heh kidding. PTPALS<3 more like slacker-11pm-pals. oops should be 4am o.0 oh oh and teletubbies will hopefully celebrate your birthday soon(:

alanna: hmm. well you were sleeping late too! considering you were up late enough to notice that i was online. xi guan jiu hao la! see you at house camp, which i hope will be fun

richardsonian: um alanna and lynn, wenyan jenny? lol who are you?

shiyin: yup you jacob fan crazy crazy crazy. but i must admit he's not bad too. btw you owe me my ora shirt! bring during house camp k i need it :O

yingx: hmmm see after all the countless reminders about BREAKING DAWN i still forgot all about it. so sorry. maybe i can lend you when we do celebrate your birthday, wonder when that wiill be though. or if busy teletubbies are even free!):

lynn: zomg i reply your tag one month later! it's officially 1st september (12.12am 30 aug) WELCOME SEPTEMBER

yingx: guess you were right about th eat alot thing. sigh cereal. chael said my house is a getfatfactory! and i'm the product of that HAHA either way, we should pig out during your birthday too. and you get the award for the most frequent tagger on my blog, i think

i can't remember which tags i've already replied cos i don't have archives. anyhow! 8-course dinners make you feel very sinful after that, especially when the dessert is crispy durain icecream, even if you went to the gym before that ><

2008-08-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

oh no oh no not been posting.

NEW SKIN! since i was going to make my art online blog thing for sap i might as well change the skin here too. my art blog's called halcyon weird spelling and it reminds me of birds. but it actually means peaceful

(shawna thanks for taking pictures of the art stuff for me i love you send me your awesome pictures kay! jurong:D)

thanks everyone who cheered me up over psb. i kind of expected it anyway. and i'm glad to say i've made the realisation that i don't have to be good at anything or everything, that when it all comes down to the simple things in life, i just need to be contented and happy. which is awesome because i am contented and happy now! with awesome friends cousins blah. plus, when all else fails, 6 subway cookies do the job. zomg me and shiyin ate SO MUCH today i still feel the cookie bloatedness. i am turning into a cookie monster rawr

cheer up dionne! and sherry! and sam! and others

plus, i am glad to have richard comm! 7 cads next year omg cad overload. but that will mean i can slack off more. we get to design the TEE! which is both eggciting and worrying because the tee lasts for 2 years and we really won't want it ugly :/

but before that, there's yearbook to complete. am looking forward to banner though, cos once the planning stage and buying of materials is over, it'll be rather fun! i miss lying on the banner that dried 5 mines and pouring paint directly from the tins on the cloth. i hope th new sec 1 cads are fun hee hee. and shynn is transferring to cad comm too. how awesomeee

quote recitation today wasn't very good. shiyin claims i looked cute with my eyes floating around. (basically everywhere else except on ms ong) but i think i just looked shifty. and ms ong penalised me 1 mark for the eyecontact thing. hmpf i was assuming there was supposed to be people around k. like in a real audience. nevermind. NINE SO BE IT!

urban life coming up i am worried cos i don't know if my idea is cool enough. i always start off thinking it's awesome awesome then later i hear of other people's ideas and i start to doubt. i must get rid of that nature! have more self-worth man. awesome i'm gonna practise and practise and get better! i haven't been replying tags. sigh maybe i'll get down to doing it tomorrow.not all though, only the recent ones (very few!)

where are all the tags gone :O

arghs jan seems to have sparked off my liking for this song AGAIN. and to think i promised myself i wouldn't be like her. ah well it's addictive anyway :D

Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

2008-08-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

this week is TIRED WEEEK
but despite the sleep deprivation i'm veryvery happy
it seems the less i sleep the less i fall asleep
accomplishedddd i didn't fall asleep in class today at all x)
and i got the hang of paying attention. it's less hard to focus on the teacher's face and words now
i'm happy orals and chinese pt is over, i like things to be over

now what's left to be over is
history ppa
english pt
math pt
art canvas painting
other art homework
cmps board design
year book
urban life art exam
i'm sure there are many others i just don't remember!

hmm seems quite a long list but i'm very sure i'll emerge out of this all alive and stronger
and that includes especially cmps
darling cmps team sorry if i've been anything pissed temperamental shorttempered or anything
we'll get through all this and we'll convince ourselves and we'll pass

everything's gonna be well! and i'm happy house camp beckons.
fun fun fun being a cad is so busy but i guess i don't regret it one bit
sense of satisfaction heehee.

i'm abit worried for urban life though.
about equal standing as cmps on my WORRYMETER
it stands for 30% of my grade?! what if i scrw it up nono
i will find my style and i will do it fast!
i will think of a cool unique perspective and paint something cool
i'm just annoyed we have to use acrylic and not oil
oil is so much easier to control RAWWWWWRRRR

but then, i have to learn cos acrylic is important or so says some people
and i really do want my end product to be pretty and nice and deep
well, we'll hope for the best
plus there are other chances. i'll await the day i return to darling oil painting (:

and i'm taking trip science history

2008-08-13T19:38:00.002+08:00

my ipod! oh how i miss it ): it was more than a device it was a best inanimate friend aaahh I hope it's not gone forever or I'm going to personally slaughter him. But then again, I'm not some murderer, I'll probably just kope his! But nooo, nothing can make up for it. my best inanimate friend BIF BEEF spoilt(along with the wi-fi connection which happens to be the most important part) DIE DIE DIE

I'm quite dead so many things to be done, so little time to do it. Is it possible to fail rs? To think about 7 months ago I was worrying about wheher I'd get CmPS and now that i'm in it I wish I hadn't took such a stupid risk in the first place. It's so not worth it, waste my one year away tskk

Yesterday was fun though! yingx and shawna came over to "study", ended up more like pigging out session again. But at least I had my worthy celebration fo the end of geogmathchinese. It went better than I expected it to be, I'm still anxious though >< We took tons of photos, gosh the beltless trio. And lazed around doing things ranging from mashed potatoes to nutella biscuits. SHAWNA THE PHOTOGRAPHER GIVE ME THE PHOTOS NOW!

If I could wish for one thing to happen now and permanently, I'd want cmps to be complete and done with. Too bad no Aladdins exist ):

I discovered by extreme attachment to the spine of my books today. the story books that I like, at least. Which means no more book lending, guess I can't overcome myself to bear the thought of that bent spine.

but sorry anyway for getting angry at you people, and showing it.
It was really un-called for! I sound like Ms Ong now-.-"

2008-08-10T18:50:00.002+08:00

I figured I need to post this before I forget everything!
NATIONAL DAY EVE was awesome
I mean the performances and everything were all okay
then when it came to the community singing,
209 just got really high and we started jumping around
and arms around each other and singing really loudly
I think ms ong was quite freaked
It was then when shawna reminded me that it's august now and 209's gonna be lost in no time at all! ):):):
this year's national day wouldn't be like that if not for 209
they've been so amazing and somehow we come together and it's pure awesomeness
well, I'll just have to treasure it while it's still here

After that, yingxin and shawna and I went to study at cafe cartel until 6
productive much, kind of, considering I'm hardly productive outside of home
but despite being productive it was still quite fun!

yay this must be the best national day for quite a long time
thankyou 209<3

2008-07-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

I'VE GOT IT I'VE GOT IT. MRS WHO MRS WHATSIT WHY DIDN'T I THINK OF THAT EARLIER. guardian angels zomg <3

2008-07-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

i can't do math :O
I NEED SERIOUS HELP. Hmm but maybe I shouldn't moan about this because math always turns out okay in the end, with loads of intense staring at the paper and waiting for my brain to click! The school makes use of us I tell you. What GOH gift. okay I mean it might be quite fun but I have no ideas. Aspire to Inspire is a spastic theme ): I can't work on anything about it.

At first I thought tesellation thingums like YOU RAISE ME UP. Then it becomes so rigid ands tiff and not artsy I want it to be more freeee-like now. so cannot and then I thought of going all the way back to my calligraphy roots. MMM that's so long ago but yeh. Splashed black ink very free and I still remember. Maybe calligraphy will be the only thing i'll ever be substantial at ah I spent so much less time on it than art and art is still so crapzxs. But ACRYLIC for the goh gift. so no calligraphy paint. But maybe that's a good idea to work from I don't know. This is frustrating me!

Alot of work and nonsense crap. I haven't bowled for 11 days. great it feels so shuang to have a break. Maybe I should just give up on it and invest my time on something I would more likely excel at. Like maybe I should take up watercolour I've been wanting to do it since so long ago. Or maybe I should just go brush up on my pencil and painting skills before I die.

Somehow human figures remind me of toilet signs :X

2008-07-22T20:53:00.004+08:00

300TH THREE HUNDREDTH POST!

I'll never get my perfect game so 300 shouldn't be very significant. But it's nice fantasing though.

Yesterday was racial harmony day and I wore some superbly ah ma thing to school since jodyGOH made me accompany her. and how silly, after convincing me to wear she didn't wear it to school (cos she was scared no one would be wearing!) silly silly silly. Today is the first day i'm back to posting in run-on sentences instead of the whole post seperated into um stanzas?!

The bowling people spent so much time at the calligraphy place. cos all of those juniors insisted me and lynn write their chinese names for them. After 1 year of not writing, I have lost it. Oh who cares now anyway (: So since we were all congregrated there, we went for a team lunch of sorts. lynn, marissa, michelle, juleen and me. But we met cherylgatot, rachelang, desiree and wanqi there. What an incomplete team lunch but it was last minute quite good already. 3/4 of cdiv team ONE was there! (marissa lynn and me)

oh man I kind of miss cdiv! AHHHH TEAM ONE :O:O:O

I love how Shawna does the contrast thing with the photos that we take. Somehow it makes us look nicer and I don't know how this magic works. Or maybe it's really some very basic thing in photoshop and idiotic me is making such a big deal about it :x

I am severely suffering from lack of sleep! SAP is proving to really take up loads of time ): 16 paintings i'm only done with a half of one painting. Now there's this new layout designs of the guest-of-honor gift for speech day. And I know it will turn out screwed cos I can't do acrylic ): what nonsense human figures and myraid of colours. I stare at his email and I don't see any inspirations coming ah.

SAP next year I cannot decide if it's right to stay on. maybe I'll flip a coin!

well, there are alot of other things going well though. like history pt ending tomorrow. and english pt sounds fun (though I know it'll probably end up busy and screwed) but at least it gives yingx and I a chance to feast at prata or random places near her house. I AM CONTENT

2008-07-20T19:10:00.000+08:00

TWO OH NINE ftw<3!

2008-07-20T17:43:00.002+08:00

These few days have been sleep-at-3am days
CmPS can get so tiresome sometimes, and I don't even see the point of our project
I swear that next year's RS won't be as meaningless as this, hopefully

On a happier note,
I finished class tee design and managed to send to Ms Ong on Friday (well not exactly it was 1 plus am)
and because I can't use photoshop, and don't have it either,
I had to cut out the complicated small picture with a scissors
rawh i swear my cutting needs to be improved
jodygoh tells me my favorite word recently is 'hideous'
hmmm.
But work never seems to be gone completely!

I still have :
-16 sap paintings
-geog FA and various worksheets
-history pt journal entry
-english worksheet

):):):

Yesterday was Cdiv masters + stepladders
Congrats stacylian
and well done to michelle and juleen too
well michelle, told ya you would get in right?

After that I went for the service learning volunteer training workshop
It wasn't as boring as I'd expected it to be
well, at least there was food
I think my group ate most of it there
well, growing teenagers!
We literally had a picnic during our discussion
ooh awesome much
SL can be quite fun sometimes<3

I realise that I depend alot on my iPod now
like all the time I have it beside me.
and whenever I am alone I will listen to it
I'm quite sorry for it though, under my care it's gotten quite alot of scratches
and the protector is not sticking propoerly

this is such a random boring disastrous HIDEOUS post
I shall finish up history pt NOWWWW

2008-07-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

RANDOM PICTURES IN 2008 (so far!)

koped this from shawna MACS BREAKFAST

youth day at marche with yingx and jody<3>

me and peiyin. i look like desiree here, or so i think

service learning at the cool resort-ish place. HA huimin's a bird, sherry and I caught her in a cage muahaha

Marissa: yup i will definitely try much. i realise i've said 'thanks' alot to people these few days. thanks-overload!

jan: omg you're so rubbish. i've decided bowling with that is very unbearable and torturous. but noooo i wasn't referring to that in the post anyway :D YOU AH tsktsk

Jermaine: yup! but best isn't enough but whatever. here i come to my well-deserved break from bowling. amazing awesome much, though i'll miss the company at club training. maybe i'll still go and listen to kim and her theory about bitches and bark and nature :P

2008-07-18T16:06:00.004+08:00

I FEEL LIGHT AND FREE

even though my history pt looks like a frecking political cartoon, very very hideous
and i accidentally lost some photos. ah well

LIGHT AND FREE LIGHT AND FREE LIBERATION FEELS SO :D

(i think 4 days of bowling with janleeyahui infected me abit into her archuleta songs craze)

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe
-When you Believe, David Archuleta

2008-07-17T21:57:00.003+08:00

and so cdiv has ended!
it all seems so fast though
seems as if singles event was just yesterday
and all of a sudden it's all over
well, we're THIRD
that's an improvement from 4th last year!
and it's the closest we've ever got
ONE point away from sports school, who was 2nd
i think the fight we put up was really good
from 3rd during day 1 and 2
to tied 1st on day 3
and finally to 3rd in the end

and it's bonded us so close together, pure awesomeness
it's been awesome with all 18 of you :D

even with my lousy scores and being very weak yesterday and throughout the whole cdiv
i thought it was really fun
THANKYOU jan marissa and lynn
i know i must have decreased the fun level by quite abit
but it was still amazing.

JAN because you fought so hard all the way till the end and encouraged me each time i gave up
LYNN because you didn't grow weak like i did even though both of us weren't bowling very well
MARISSA because you were an awesome teammate. all the songs and stuff!

I do hope we three get to be in a team again, but since marissa you're younger that won't be possible next year. well, there's still chances

and here i come to my 2/3 weeks rest! i hope it's not too late yet. at least my finger hasn't lost all feeling as of now, and that's a good sign.

i love you rafflesbowling :D

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

2008-07-16T16:14:00.004+08:00

i am so sorry team one

i'll be strong tomorrow

thank you rgbowling!<3

jan: YEAH DAMN NICE. we must go back there and eat more next time okay! and that must be cos we're happy and not sad like the last time. i'm so sorry for today. i won't be so weak tomorrow and you're an amazing teammate too<3 THANKYOU

marissa: hello! i'm very sorry about today. dampening the spirits and all. hai! we'll try our best tomorrow.

stacy: haha! (desperate attempt to act cheeeem)

yingx: we'll have shokudo after all these bloody pts! promise yeah. actually even if i eat 1 meal a day or 7, i'd still be the same size so who cares

shawna: haha shawna omg my 16 paintings is dying. i mean they're nonexistent as of now

ANGWANQI insisted i reply her tag, though i didn't see it when i posted hmpf ><

wanqi: thanks for the encouragement too. we'll cry together tomorrow if anything happens. but i'm sure you'll do well. and i'll try to suppress the pain (: i won't give up so easily yeah<3>

2008-07-14T18:47:00.002+08:00

i need to spare properly
i need to stay positive
i need to release consistently
i need to suppress the pain
i need to bowl well
i feel like strangling myself!

doubles was bad bad bad bad bad
sometimes i feel like a terrible cycle repeats.
i always seem to almost lose hope
then that last desire to get better, or my doubles partner, or just the fighting spirit, or the cheering
gets me back again
all filled up with energy and drive
and then it just all vanishes again
ohmyohmyohmy terrible mental! tsktsk

but the promise really came true wanqi!
we both said we'd try to finally cry today
and we both did!
though obviously with contrasting effects
after you cried you fought back harder than before (i'm veryveryvery happy for you)
but after i half-cried, i just went lower/remained the same
well half-cried considering no tears actually came out!
the tears always well up but don't flow out
i bet it's cos there's some queer probem with my tear ducts :D

now for the happy happy happy things
after cdiv jan, lynn and i were so devastated by our scores
that we went to cineleisure and did stuff
we talked about many things hee hee
and it was nice to just listen and talk and laugh
what was amazing was that, hanging out with them makes me eat so much more than other friends

we ate so much omg
1) lunch at occ
2) 300grams of famous amos cookies
3) dimsum
4) this huge mango ice desert

and the mango ice desert thing was so cold we were shivering inside the place
like seriously shaking and jittering
we should go out some other day and just spend the whole day eating from morning till night
7 meals a day or something:
breakfast, brunch, lunch, teabreak #1. teabreak #2. dinner, supper
ah gluttons gluttons
but the eating really cheered all 3 of us up ALOT
is this considered as binging?

but yes it was really happy and for those few hours i didn't think about anything
the one amazing thing about cdiv is that you find out
that beyond all the lousy scores and all the tears
your teammates are the awesomest
and what really matters is that they are there behind you all the way
so maybe that was what i was trying to tell myself all this while
so for quartet, i'll repeat the cycle again
i'll refill myself with the strongest hopes
(bowl like i smile, righttt)

tag replies

jan: haha i see your craze hasn't ended. you're bowling amazingly okay stay happy(: goodluck for quartet we'll fire up

stacy: not anymore. it's so dead now ):):): revive it ahhh i should go bury it in the tagboards' graveyard

wanqi: eh congrats on high game okay! you're awesome man. we managed to cry today yay SUCCESS. goodluck for the remaining days esp quartet. your team must fight hard

lynn: haha yeahyeah we'll make it true okay. never say cannot

stacy: aiy you sec ones. goodluck tomorrow k

cae: yupyup okay (:

stacy: go tell rachael that. she'd smile for ages teeheehee

shiyin: which is why i shouldn't watch the notebook and cry even MORE cannot cannot!

rachael: stacy say you very cool i say you very not cool. yay now there's GOLDEN MEAN cos balance out

huayang: yeah okay you too yeah! i'll link you soon (:

lynn: the "some other thing" is my cloth. it was completely white this morning okay, at the end of 6 games it's almost black. rawh! cheerup doubles we'll make our amazing comeback in the distant future :D

2008-07-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

RGBOWLING IS LOVE!<3
CDIV CDIV CDIV

2008-07-09T21:19:00.003+08:00

cdiv day one went really bad
but 12 more games and i'm not going to give up just yet
thankyou yingxin and shanxi so much for your cheering
it really made things better ALOT
and jodyhong and jodygoh and various other people

but one good thing was that i was quite happy throughout the whole thing
at least more than NAG! :D
jan and me got split up though, cos i bowled so zzz today
now i'm with lynn and we'll have fun next monday!
doubles yeaaaah

cheer up michelle and juleen. you mess-up-my-shoelaces person! michelle your 1st 3 games were wonderful so it's okay

RGBOWLING CDIV FTW

2008-07-05T17:58:00.003+08:00

heard lots of demoralising stuff today
but it was my choice to make and i chose this
and i'll have to live with what happens
those words are completely true anyway
i can just feel that things are going to get better real fast though
so i'll just have to wait patiently

amazing eggciting fantabulous :D:D:D
next week is going to be a fun week
MONDAY with thickmates<3
and tuesday beyourselfday
wendesday CDIV!
thursday choir concert
looking forward to all of that!

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
-You And Me, Lifehouse

reply tags

wanqi: hahaha i see how enthu you are at tagging me! thankyou thankyou i'm honoured. i didn't purposely dao your tag, i just replied nic's tag cos it seemed more urgent-ish. i usually reply tags in my posts anyway. yeah you must jiayou and help team 2 win team 1! though we'll fight our best too (:

stacy: sigh now i have become the tag-ignorer huh? i'm innocent!-waves hands in the air- hey goodluck for wednesday and all. though we aren't teammates anymore

royvin: hello!

nic: um not all the team 1 people are pro-er than you. i'm in team 1 and i'm so much lousier! have confidence you low self-esteem woman. don't be such an easily hurt person like wanqi :P I'm almost all recovered, thanks

shiyin: nononono if i do that i'll need a bucket to contain the tears ): the book's sad enough

lynn: yeahyeah omg i very honoured please. they use this [lace as conference area. I BEAT THE RGBOWLING BLOG (: anyway, we haven't had our team-thrashing-out session thing yet? but then again, yeoh won't know if we don't. and can you pelase tell me what are the stuff he wants us to write down? he talk until i get so confused.

brendan: thankyou i'll try my best :D

samantha: i think you're more spastic than the mascots hmpf at least they're cute. goodluck with your applications? for both i mean. so sorry i refused to do the thing >< i can send you MORE PICTURES teeheehee

2008-07-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

sometimes i think i'm too irrational for my own good.
did i have to train so much today that my almost recovered finger acted up again?
and i still have to train tomorrow.
but at least it didn't act up that badly, bearable pain (:
i'll have to learn to surpress the pain for cdiv anyway

time really moves faster and faster
cdiv is on wednesday! that's 5 days from now?
really really soon.
and surprisingly, i don't feel anything at all
not nervous, not excited, not anxious, not scared, nothing ):
well maybe i should be glad thatat least i'm not overly stressed up
or maybe those kind of feelings will set in when the date is even closer
but whatever happens, i'll just have fun
YEAAAH we'll just keep singing angels!

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong

and it'll give us the protection from open frames we need

and before i forget
i'm so impressed by 209 amg
people actually respond when others ask stuff on the Yahoo Groups
we're so initiative-ish please
ah 209 makes so many things so easy
if i have anyone to thank at the end of this year, you'll be at the top of my list!
oops but lazy me has completely forgotten about tshirt):
one of the less initiative-ish of the lot ahhh
i'm a black sheep! (or was it some other color? or some other animal?! agh)

Wednesday
went to eat at the soup spoon for dinner with yingx and shiyin
yay i love that place
and then we walked from cityhall mrt all the way to vicotria concert hall
it's so far i thought it would just be a few steps away ):
and then my stomach had to hurt so badly that i couldn't walk fast
me and yingxin were sitting so high up in the concert hall
gets quite dizzy-ish
but dance concert was good
took a lift from eenette's aunt after that
me, peiyin, kristie and eenette squeezed into the back
but thanks eenette's aunt!

YOUTH DAY! i'm looking forward thickmates<3

2008-07-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

pictures from service learning last saturday :D

yeah man the kids are the cutest. and those two giants are called morchoo and titoi (i think)

this makes it not seem like a farm but a resort. but it's both and i want to live there

steph. I LAUGH you can be borchoo or something. the blue version of the two giant mascots

2008-06-30T22:19:00.002+08:00

i realise i haven't been blogging regularly!
there's always at least 5 days between each post. oops ><
but then again, i've just been superbly tired these few days
that i just save up whatever energy i have and finish stuff
and then sleep whenever i can
but days have been good
209 never fails to brighten up your day
it's probably the most fun and crazy class i've had ever

i read nicholas sparks' THE NOTEBOOK
hee hee shiyin! but omg it's so good
it makes chicklit seem so meaningless when the love described inside is so much more?
but i wonder if it exists now anyway :S
i'll read a walk to remember next! thanks jodi in advance
ah yes i have renewed interest.

i really do hope i get into psb
actually, i doubt i stand a chance since so many people applied?
and my interview skills are _
but then again, i'm wanting so many things now

1. PSB!
2. taiwan immersion trip. i'll just apply anyway i really really want it so badly. it sounds so fun!
3. cdiv to go very very well. in terms of scores since i know i'd probably have fun with such amusing teammates like LYNN MARISSA and JAN
4. jan's finger to recover faster. i empathise man doubles! finger injuries are the yuckiest of the lot
5. finish all my work and pts that never end anyway!

what a demanding person
well, even with all those unfulfilled wishes!
life's been going great
i'm finally living it like it should be
when only the present matters
and tomorrow will be better no matter what :D

lynn: well, that made it even longer! we'll stay high teammate. i promise i'll TRY not to be low and dry mmhm. trytrytrytrytry

michelle: well, i did bowl nag in the end. you bowl well for cdiv yeah! we're depending on you

ting: HEY! yeah i haven't seen you around/talked for a long long time. yeah lunch sometime soon. my fingers better now thanks! everything just turned out fine in the end (:

jan: hahaha yeah! now it's cdiv and we're doubles again. i do hope we'll do well yeah. rest your finger k. you train some more it'll be so pain you have to rest for a century. trust the wise old sage with experience (:

brendan: lol okay thanks! :D

chael: teeheeheei saw your i'm yours in your notebook! THE COOLDONE RUN OUT hehe your ora shirt was "donated" by me i insist

shiyin: hahaha yeah same like how you like sweet guys cos they give you the sweet talk that you're such a sucka for. happy bussing to school and back everyday for the next week. i pity you dearly but you still can't pon school. don't even think about it! or i'll be so lonely during geog

stacy: yeah you are special. cos Stacy is Special. HEEHEE alliteration goodluck for cdiv!

yingx: haha okay sure! anytime no problem. i'm sure you will never die. your wonderful hiding mask worked failry wellexcept for 1 or 2 days when it just malfunctioned. i hope all goes well yeah. for co concert too

galba3: yeah see secret identity not exposed. have fun working 8-6 doctorWANNABE. you have my prebious blessings for cambirdge yeah. don't underestimate them! my blessings very powerful one

elaine: HELLO today is not capsciums day so we shall not type in caps! yeah you too feel good be good and everything will be good. hope everything goes well for you little miss midfielder (: you write to me first then i'll reply yeah. afterall you're the free-er one

jan: hey doubles. you must faster find some other songs other than archuleta. i'm getting bored of angels. BORED. so you shall not bore me away during doubles. maybe we can sing ehm davidcook songs -jumps high-

2008-06-26T23:35:00.004+08:00

→ Pick your birth month.
→ Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
→ Copy to your own blog and either link to a post that has all 12 months or copy-paste it all under your result.
→ Tag 5 people from your friends list your friends!

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. ~~Sharp thoughts.~~ Easily angered. ~~Attracts others and loves attention.~~ Deep feelings. ~~Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled.~~ Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. ~~Sickness usually in the ear and neck.~~ Good imagination. ~~Good physical. Weak breathing.~~Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. ~~Hardworking.~~ High spirited. Spendthrift.

OH MAN YES I HAVE WEAK BREATHING!
yes yes yes yes :D:D:D

2008-06-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

after it all, i realise i'm very very blessed already
for having the best teammates anyone can ever ask for<3
thank you jenn jan stacyyoung, we're the best team always
and charlotte and yuanteng, the best pair-of-lane partners
and various others like peiyin jodyhong lynn marissa
THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH YAYNESS

2008-06-14T17:20:00.003+08:00

thank you cdiv, for being so understanding
jan stacyyoung wanqi michelle lynn
sounds so cheesy but, what would i do without all of you! <3

my injuries really do have great timing :/
but i'm going to try my best to not pull down stacy jenn and especially jan doubles :D
and i'll try not to whine to you all too
yesyesyes i must seriously put in effort to this or i'll regret so much

house comm chalet was awesome
heh all the planning didn'really help much since we didn't follow the itinery anyway
we went to arcade and played that bishibashi thing
well,they played and we watched but it was still fun
and while watching i saw how people look almost constipated when they are banging the buttons
we played charades and that was really funny
then XMEN omg i love the movie

and after that shawna and i went outside
talked about random stuff till 2am plus
we didn't get our supper in the end! ):
woke up at 630 am
woohoo i'm so proud of myself i didn't oversleep
ate macs breakfast before taking mrt to the other end of singapore
for training at sp, agh the trip was so long

then we had spare test!
which was really bad but the injury was worst
i hope i can forget the pain throughout nag
but i hope, even more, that the damage caused by me not resting and bowling nag instead
isn't permanent or too long-term
but at least i'm prepared since the doctor already said it might take very long to recover if i bowl nag. but what can i do? nag is a rolloff too and i already rested throughout rolloffs):
i'll just see how it goes yup :D

jenn jan stacyyoung YESSWEWILLFIGHT

tagreplies

jermaine: technically that's not possible cos Doc said it will take very long to recover,but i'll try anyway. in the mean time i'll be missing club trainings k!cos i'm ging to rest all the way till cdiv after nag. goodluck for nag cousin. yah you should tag more often (:

jodi: HAH NEIGHBOUR WELCOME BACK with no red carpet. hmmmmm i wonder if i've missed you -thinks hard-

wanqi: hahahaha eh thanks for encouraging me k! goodluck on monday and the whole week.

nicolette: hahaha 13 pound of course. yes yes it rocks though i'm not used to it at all. goodluck for nag (:

2008-06-12T14:11:00.003+08:00

off to house comm chalet today!
hope there aren't any major screw ups
and everyone has fun (:

training yesterday was sianned
i'm happy i didn't bowl cos the lanes seemed so weird
i'm sure i'd bowl badly if i did
then after that i went to get my new spare ball
yay white dot blackberry
it's the same one as nicolette (both of them)
goodluck for spare test! :D

what if it's lost behind words we could never find

reply tags

nicolette: eh you thanked me a thousand times already! it's okay really. doesn't matter anyway if i didn't lend you it'd just rot in my cupboard

stacy: of course! she asked first what. eh goodluck for nag k teammate

jan: suree. now it's just the tendon that hurts abit. which isn't that serious so i'm all ready i think!

shiyin: but it's still a motivational song. ah i haven't seen you in so long D:D:D: unrealistically amazing? HAHAHA

wanqi: yeah doesn't matter. i'm quite okay with inferno now anyway! goodluck for nag

lynn: sure! not pain anymore already. omg i'm going to have to endure almost 2 hours of bus/mrt rides with you! someone save me from the horrors of the lynn):

royvin: hello now you know then (:

nicolette: yeah sure just use. you can just use the eact same things too! hahaha anything goodluck for nag! i'm quite well already. now i have your spare ball so cool right(:

stacy: tsktsk gullible! i shall trick you some other time. well you better hope the trick doesn't become real): it's possible cos my finger tendon still hurts

2008-06-11T00:11:00.002+08:00

JODYHONG IS BACK!

YAY I'VE MISSED YOU EX-DOUBLES<3

but anyway, bowl well tomorrow and prove yourself in your only roll-off k. we'll both work hard together and try to not visit the toilet during cdiv :P and i'll try to root myself at your lane and cheer you on (:

i hope my finger recovers! but for now, i'm casting away all the worry about teams and my hand and everything. because i want a good night's sleep. i'm starting to miss the company i get at school. like i just realised yesterday i haven't seen shawna in three weeks! that's a record D:

goodluck for rolloffs tomorrow cdiv<3

2008-06-06T23:09:00.003+08:00

i guess i am happy that i didn't break down today

even with all that bad performance and my bowling balls not working

i would say it's not purely my fault that i bowled so badly?

but it's at least partially my fault?

cos we can't always blame it on the ball and the thumbhole and everything

but what's left is monday and wednesday and i'll try harder

and not think about my skinless 4th finger

and just put some trust in myself (:

we got our nag teams today

i'm with jan, jenn and stacyyoung

that's team 2 so i guess i should be content?

yay we'll have fun together

i realise i've only had 2 doubles partners so far

jan and jody and they're both Js

heh i'll miss you as a doubles jody!

thankyou to everyone who tried to cheer me up

and asked me to chill and all?

but i still gave you all that angry face

or even ignored you?

i'm so so sorry for how unstable i can get okay

i promise i didn't mean it ):

but all that just made me realise that something is going right <3>

Jordin Sparks - This Is My Now

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna to play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.

2008-06-05T16:51:00.004+08:00

THUNDERGIRL GOES ON STRIKE
muahahaha it's the perfect skin for the bowling blog but it didn't really work so
and i'm giving up on changing the skin for them
the blog doesn't like me it screws up no matter what i do to it
but still i think the phrase is cool(:
we can put it on our shirt or something!
or write it on masking tape and stick it on our backs during cdiv

went to the book fair thing with jodi and highestly yesterday
and i bought this super cool chinese book (omg i'm so proud of myself)
bt only cos there's less than 20 words per page
and the whole page is pictures!
i guess i can look at it when i need to draw and get inspired
but if you actually read the words
it's actually a really emo book
bet the author is some suicidal person please
it's so scary omg, and he publishes his emoness
tsktsk the world needs some happyness man.
like THUNDERGIRLS

and after that i went to meet elainehuang
cos she was at her dad's toapayoh office and was bored
she wanted to buy shoes but in the end we just sat down at macs
and i finally ate apple pie
after how long i can't even remember
while she marvelled at my ipodtouch
that blur girl forgot what it was called
and spent more than 10 minutes entering my wireless@sg password
(cos her fingers are clumsy)

at night i went to get my new ball
wanqi you are my forever enemy
you took the last of momentum!
so i had no choice but to get inferno D:
and i liked momentum's colour so so much more than inferno rawh
i will um, think of something to do to you on friday
i hope inferno's good though
i did 2 throws with it and i guess i didn't like it all that much?
but maybe it'll get better
so i'll go train at club today and get used to the new ball

GOODLUCK FOR ROLL-OFFS TOMORROW CDIV
THUNDERGIRLS WILL GO ON STRIKE

tag replies:

jan: you crazy already! who watches 94 videos on archuleta, as much as i like him too i'm not obsessed like somebody is. and during training you can suddenly squeal "OMG HIS VOICE DAMN NICE" or something to that effect o.0 goodluck tomorrow, remember our 175 average deal

stacy: hahaha yeah it is. goodluck tomorrow proded junior, bet you're gonna bowl better than me! ><

sherry: heh tell that to jan(: yay because of me, you finally ate your first clam. enjoy your emo book. and have fun at melbourne k <3

wanqi: yupyup i will, right after this! goodluck to you for rolloffs tomorrow okay

samantha: it's some phase in art history. i have not much idea either cos i haven't started on it oh man. yeah no stress no stress for your softball too

shiyin: he miss (not so)realistic. romantisicm D:

shawna: aw darling, sorry yup. omg darling HAHAHA do you remember our mass convo? chace crawford<3

2008-06-02T19:47:00.003+08:00

life is too short to wallow away :D
i've decided that i should start living mine properly
the beginning of happy days!

went to jodi's house for no reason at all today
she was packing for her melbourne trip
and i guess i just needed to do something less boring than staying at home
and more importantly get away from my mother =x
thanks jodi! for taking my mind away from my mom ugh
and for refusing to go to prata yay
if not for that i would have gained another kg by now (:

maybe some other day when i'm partially grounded
i'll run over there again, thanks in advance jodi

FRIDAY NIGHT
BABY ARE YOU SLEEPING
FRIDAY NIGHT
MY HEART IS STILL BEATING
IT'S ALRIGHT
OPEN UP YOUR SLEEPY EYES
COME ALIVE, COME ALIVE ON FRIDAY NIGHT
:D :D :D

2008-06-01T23:55:00.001+08:00

AND THE LIGHTS ARE OUT
DON'T BE SAD FOR LONG
AND THE LIGHTS ARE OUT
I'LL BE SHINING ON
I'M JUST GONNA LET MY LIFE
BLEED ON THIS LETTER
LET MY SONG
SING ON FOREVER

:D:D:D

2008-06-01T15:58:00.002+08:00

only now do i know how troublesome it is to organise chalets for many people ):
argh sec 3s'07 did a really good job heh i wonder how our house comm chalet will turn out
hopefully, it'll be fine without any serious problems or whatnot

am very annoyed with mr wong
he gave me romanticism omg o.0
i mean, i'd rather realism, so much easier
then now i don't know how to start on the powerpoint and everything
pointless study of visual arts, pointless seriously agh

CLICKFIVECONCERT today!
enjoy yourselves whoever's going, tons of you(:
while i'm stuck at home with my sprained hip
i get really annoyed when i can't walk properly heh
hope it gets well by tomorrow
i've missed the company i get at training ><

oh and lynn,
now i realise it's not all that irrational to feel scared
but for now, i guess trying our best would have to suffice, yes?
in the mean time,
zhimin's pm does make tons of sense:
"live for the moment and know that everything has reasons"

2008-05-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

how useless can i get!
argh i feel like strangling myself
right after my tendon recovers, not completely either,
i sprain/pull my hip joint.
woah, very intelligent zhiwen
so i look so retarded now limping about
and i can't bowl for another 2 days
agh the worst part is the limping =x

but at least i know it will be better in max 3 days
so that's in time for occ training and whatnot
yess i love marissa! she's sending me all the david archuleta songs
thanks mae/nurse/junior :D

but one good thing is that for the next 2 days
i hvae an excuse to just laze around and slack all day
oh the glory

sorry elaine i had to cancel on you, make it up some other time yeah! (:

TAGS OH TAGS O:

2008-05-29T23:12:00.002+08:00

koped this from HIGHESTLY :D

Put your music player on shuffle and answer these questions with its title

YOU
What is your town like?
Teenagers - My Chemical Romance
heh it's full of cool teens man :D

What mood are you in?
My Heart - Paramore
is no broken? haha yup my mood lies in my heart

How's your love life?
Mobile - Avril Lavigne
hmmmmmmm yup very mobile, totally o.0

What will you grow up to be?
Hero/Heroine - Boys like Girls
OMG cool. yup i'll be your neighborhood superhero, and slay those demons whee

What are you afraid of?
Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescence
um drunkards? not really actually x)

Best place you have ever been?
Easier Than Love - Switchfoot
doesn't make sense at all. hmmmm

What do you first think about in the morning?
Broken - Secondhand Serenade
oh my nooo. i'm not that emo please. well maybe i'll think about my broken 4th finger (not really)

LIFE
What was your birth like?
Only One - Yellowcard
the birth of the one and only me?! okay that sounds wrong x)

How did you feel about life in the early years?
Anywhere but Here - Yellowcard
wth! why does this quiz make me soundlike some emo maniac. argh am content with where i am okay hmpf

What was your first crush like?
Politicians - Switchfoot
UM?! nooo way politicians are way boring

Your worst fears?
Good Girl Gone Bad - Rihanna
uh no i'm not scared of me turning bad, the guaikia that i am teeheehee

Your dream job as a child?
Anything but Ordinary- Avirl Lavigne
yess nothing boring. no test-tube washing hahaha. as said before, i'll be a superhero

What will your first job be?
View From Heaven - Yellowcard
see i told ya i'd be a superhero. when i'm flying in the air i'd have a view like that from heaven :D:D:D

How will your first love be?
Soda Pop - Britney Spears
uh. fizzing? and then POP it will disappear? oh whatever ugh

Favorite hobby?
Let You Down- Default
okay noooo i won't let you down i will not let disappointing people be my hobby. mmm

Something you HATE?
Undiscovered - Ashlee Simpson
huh. undiscovered... treasure? yup muahaha may all gold find their way to me

Something you love?
Love Makes the World Go Round - Ashlee Simpson
hahaha i love the world and i love love? okay maybemaybe. yes i love the world and its rainbows (:

Your wedding will be like?
Make This Go On Forever - Snow Patrol
yup it'll be so grand and wonderful that everyone'll want it to last forever. yes so cool

How will you die?
Love Story - Katherine McPhee
wow what a tragic romance huh ):

What have people thought about you?
One Year, Six Months - Yellowcard
WHY so much yellowcard ugh 0: and it doesn't make sense

THE THINGS AROUND YOU
Your clothes are like?
Safest Place to Hide - Backstreet Boys
mm the fats? heehee

Your hair is like?
Petrified - Fort Minor
yeah it scares you like Medusa. but i like the song so means um i like my hair? hahaha

Your smile is like?
Potential Breakup Song - Aly and AJ
uhhh? o.0

Your school is like?
Slipped Away - Avril Lavigne
no my school stands strong. okay maybe not really, the building is old ugh

Your favorite drink is like?
Apologize - OneRepublic
nope i don't like apologies, not the most pleasant things on earth huh

Your favorite food is like?
Deep in My Heart - Britney Spears
uhuh clogging my arteries? oh no early death

Your humor is like?
Lacrymosa - Evanescence
O.O creepy

hehe that didn;t make any sense at all
except um the hero/heroine one. yup i'll be a superhero just you wait (:

went to train at club today myself.
to test out the new drilling and all
i don't know if its right, it doesn't get stuck or anything
but i'm quite sure someday it will. the pitch is weird
but since it doesn't get stuck now, i don't know
but at least my tendon is fine and i can bowl for training tomorrow! yess finally
and new spare ball, finally.
i hope he manages to get my Tzone i don't want any other gross ball O:

chael, if you read this:
yess greeen is your color. enjoy yourself at MARYLAND! win om and have fun whooo! see you soon :D

yingx, if you read this too:
and you can be barney purple! enjoy yourself and have fun missing me. take care and i can't believe you're going all over Europe while i haven't even stepped out of Asia other than Australia ): see you in 2 weeks

reply tags:

mikimouse: yesyes it was. how annoying. okay i'll relink (: and to think i spent time on it effort wasted oh no the horror ):

chael: no you're wrong. cook is hotter and archuleta is cuter. and they are both great i decided

sam: YES IT IS. uh or it can be spinach? like popeye. it's still gross and weird. skinny i'm sure! :D

WHERE ARE THE TAGS O: O: O:

2008-05-22T20:17:00.003+08:00

15 days after my last post and i'm finally back
well there hasn't been much to post about anyway
boring life huh

i am a very poor decision maker
and the main point is that i don't know where to go on to
even after i've made my decision
and all i know how to do is keep hoping that things won't turn out like they did the last time
because that's not very pleasant but how useless!
and i know that sounded like a whole bunch of rubbish

but i do hope things sort themselves out soon
it's quite frustrating thinking and thinking in circles
i have to bowl interclub this week oh the horror ><

if there's one thing i will make myself do
i'll learn to be contented with what i have

DAVID COOK SHOULD NOT HAVE WON
ARCHULETA :D
shynn don't cook yourself
and yingxin smile and show your richard braces please

reply tags:

shawna: haha brown looks horrid on me. i will drop lit i will! it's terrible. uh i support you go for it you cycle well :P

yingx: hahaha yeah shiyin underwent torture to save her first pepperlunch for you okay. you better start eating more. goodluck for vcapt

michelle: yay okay thanks! see you tomorrow then

lynn: please i'm not forgetful like ahem some people ahem! i'm posting now right? boring life nothing to post about what :D

2008-05-07T22:40:00.002+08:00

i think it hasn't really sunk in yet that myas are over!
now i can sleep without worrying about what time i must wake up.
hee glorious joy (:
but there's geog pt and art spaces and class tee
and openhouse house board proposal due by monday):
everythings due on monday/tuesday anyway

i'll get them done sooner or later, i hope

went out with jody yingxin and chael
i love jody's house. they have cool cups that fit our houses.
and cool maori tissue paper
and cool simpsons dvds stuff
okay i like everything except the dogs):

but it was fun anyway
time flies when you're having fun!
(heh lynn)

2008-05-03T21:47:00.010+08:00

FOURTEEN

it was the awesomest birthday ever. thank you all so so much<3
from fish&co to pepperlunch (HA YINGXIN) to anderson's icecream to conference calls to all the smses. it's been great, really! it's probably my most enjoyable birthday so far.
these things just get better by year don't they :D

thanks to all of you who wished me happy birthday :D

alanna
anthonywee
bernice
brendan
dave
denise
dionne
elainehuang
guanyi
huayang
huimin
jan
jean
jeramyn
jermaine
jieru
jinghan
jingyi
jodi
jodygoh
jodyhong
juleen
kevinchan
kevinchew
krystal
liting
lynncheng
marissa
michelleng
nick
nigel
peiyin
priscilla
rachaello
rachelang
rachellim
ruoxi
sabian
samantha
shaowei
shawna
shiyin
sherry
stacylian
stacyyoung
tingfang
waye
wenyuan
yingxintan
yirong
zhanyou
zhengmou
zhihui
zhimin
zoe

oh and the 20 plus kids who were at service learning today and sang me birthday song! (:

i hope i didn't leave out anyone. bad memory
but i've been slacking these two days. going out and celebrating and forgetting that myas aren't over

4 more days to go. goodluck everyone!
and i'm looking forward to wednesday

2008-05-01T16:25:00.001+08:00

at least now i know i want to drop lit next year

two days to fourteen :D

2008-04-30T20:34:00.003+08:00

i don't think i did well for history. but it's over i won't harp on it
and chinese too. it's out of the window you go!
you have tortured me enough :D

now i'm just happy it's over and
i don't need to care about british and japanese nonsense anymore
i actually feel a sense of satisfaction o.o

well literature is proving to be so hard now
the way ms ong explains it there's so much to mug and
no time at all to do it
but i'll just try my best

THREE DAYS TO FOURTEEN :D

you probably don't know how it hurts
when you try so hard to hide

2008-04-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

and someday i'll just look back and laugh :D

2008-04-27T00:18:00.003+08:00

service learning was awesome fun
the kids are so cute and playful and fun (except some =x)
and i think the whole program is probably going to be quite fun
and my group is jodi huimin pris and dionne
after the splitting
so thats all the central living people
we're the cools ones so there sherry

but ms ong is coming to um
check out on our progress next saturday
it's my group's turn next week =x
well we'll show her we're uh. responsible people
even if we aren't

and she'll have to give me her toggi bar
cos next saturday is a special day :D :D :D
yay finally fourteen!

but i hate it that i turn fourteen during exams
well exams make us grow old hurh =x

ULTIMATE YOU gets me all high. looks like no sleeping tonight anymore

you're it
you're the ultimate
it's automatic i'm sure of it
no lie
so don't even try
tell me that you're not the guy
cos i've been waiting all my life
for someone just like you
you're it
you're the ultimate you

reply tags

JINGHAN: yes i know who you are even without all that information. haha mine's called yokoyoko. ugh it sounds cheena! oh and congrats on national under14 team. my efforts didn't go to waste. haha i make it sound like my efforts were very big o.o

ting: bdiv bball finals was so cool right! even though we weren't together but ah. the match wsa cool i think i want to support cdiv bball too(: heh my arm is alright now. my thumb isn't though. but nevermind. catch up soon darling!<3

wenyuan: HEY AUNTIE. yeah finals funfun. you ditched us though disappeared off to someplace else. i want to see cdiv bball too. ugh bball is so much funner to watch than bowling

amanda: hey! yeah i haven't seen you here in a long time either. love you mandaaa too<3 yup more outings. we should forgo the emo. i say nuuuu to emo (: you be happy lah you!(:

jingyi: hello how'd you find out my blog cousin. in the end we're bowling nags u-17 cos it doesn't clash with school): ahh how can i bowl under 17): you better win under 14 okay. including masters. i'll treat you!<3

2008-04-22T19:02:00.002+08:00

H-A-P-P-Y
things are getting better
and i'm hopeful :D

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

2008-04-19T19:59:00.002+08:00

i hope this won't last long
let it just be an injury which will recover within a day pleasee

it's not an injury it's just muscle tightening? i think ):
i can barely even straighten my right arm now
how am i going to train like that?
the arm muscles are so tensed up
i have no idea why
it's not as if friday's training was very tough
it was so lax argh

i've aplied so much of that muscle relaxant thing
that my arm is white-ish ugh

2008-04-19T14:38:00.002+08:00

there is something seriously wrong with my phone
the time of the smses are completely wrong
and the battery runs out so fast even when i'm not touching it
stop pmsing my dear phone ):

goodbye i shall go continue being a mugger for today
wish me luck ><